Nang NGESIT abis!

 

the UNATTRACTIVE side of me

I've told you the few things i'm good in in the entry before. However, i have never told you guys the things I'm pathetic in. Now, i shall reveal the unattractive side of me. Here are the list of what i'm suck at.

1. I'm an awful footballer.

--> I am the true 'kaki bangku'. Despite spending my time enjoying playing 'futsal' with my fellow friends, i am still very much suck in the game. I can dance gracefully and control my limbs to it's utmost quality, yet i dont seem to be able to kick football properly.

 i am BACK!

Salam Lebaran...Happy Eid Fitr

Teaching Literature

Ever notice that students love to chat? now, why dont we put that to good use. Here is a lesson plan which is both interesting and effective.

THE GOSSIPERS

1. Provide cards or pieces of paper consisting an information about the literature text you wish to touch on. You may have important details, textual evidence, characteristics and so on.

2. Provide students with another larger piece of paper for the students to write the information they gather from others. (it would be much better if the teacher provide a mind map with blanks to be filled with the information gathered.

3. Ask the students to ask around for as much information. The rule is, the students must share the information they have with each other when they are conversing. The activity must be carried out in a gossiping manner to make it more interesting and to ensure that only those who ask around can get the information.

4. The teacher can include also false information in order to make sure that they students know their text very well.

5. The teacher can design this activity into a mystery solving activity to make it more interesting.

*this lesson focuses on the speaking, listening and writing skills.

Ramadhan 2011

Alhamdulillah... it has been 8 magical days of the Ramadhan month; the fasting month for the Muslims. Every year brings about different experience. This year, for me, is a little tougher than years before. Most would be saying the same as it is blazing hot lately. Yeah2, i know... it's the green house effect. Humans are becoming more advance by day but none can completely solve the problem we created. Sacrifice comes in many ways and forms. To enable people to use the air-cond, we have to sacrifice our green. That's so unfair. Why would anyone create the aircond the first place?

Gosh, i'm rambling. Sorry for that. Now, what i would want to share is about being the victim or the other. The victim means someone who feels unfairly treated while the other would mean someone who performs the unfair treatment. Now, in life, one may chooce to be either. Most of the time, we would be comfortable being the victim. This may be the result of our self-assumption.

The one saying my friend told me that I would never forget is that 'One must be responsible for one's happiness'. That would easily mean you have the choice in your hands. You may want to fix things or you might want to let it 'go with the flow'. But sometimes we must bear in mind, 'if it's not broken, dont bother fixing it'.

I believe that life is all about KARMA. You will eventually get what you give. So give more if you wish to get more. The more negativeness you offer the world, the more you'll get in return. And at the end of the day, you will be so full of hatred you'll eventually explode.

So friends and foe, remember two things. 1. Be responsible of your own happiness and 2. Life is KARMA. What you give, you get back. Salam RAMADHAN and thank you for your time :)

we're just being HUMAN i guess...

We are always criticising about everything.
"You drive too slow..."
"It's too expensive..."
"Gosh, my hair looks terrible..."
"hurry up! you're wasting my time..."
"that's not good enough...."
"You should do this, and that..."

Have you ever thought of accepting and trying to adapt to the situation? Have you ever thought of the negative energy you exert to the people around you?

Many people are all about the talk and seldom the 'walk'. These people are able to condemn others and what others do but fail to walk the talk when it comes to themselves. Undeniable that what they suggest would be great and sometimes briliant but it would be useless when one is just able to sceam it but fail to prove it. We can always point fingers and comment but what matter most is the capability of the one talking/suggesting. there's no point barking here and there demanding for improvement, complaining regarding the flaws and bragging about what you are capable of but fail to prove it.

No one, i repeat, NO ONE is perfect. We all have flaws and weaknesses. But, what matter most is that we acknowledge our weaknesses and try to become better all the time. And we should always remember that there's no point giving our 'brilliant' ideas when we ourselves are incapable of doing it.

but then again... I GUESS WE ARE JUST BEING HUMAN (",)

Gosh! Poor Aleezee(my car)

May 20th 2011, few days after Teacher's Day, i received a shock of my life when I heard a sudden crash sound from the back of my beloved car. It was supposed to be a good day but it ended up with an accident involving my students' motorcycle and my car. As much as I dont want to be selfish, the impact the motorcycle had on my car had crashed the bumper and i was devastated.

I dont know what people would normally do but my conscience got the best of me. I went helping the boy worrying bout his safety. He was okay, except for the minor scratches he had on his arm. No bones were broken. But my heart was definitely crushed after seeing the damage to my car. I guess it's better to have a broken bumper than having broken bones.

It was not entirely the boy's fault. I think i'm guilty for not being aware of my surrounding. Next time, when you have teenagers riding close to you, do be conscious. These boys can sometimes be reckless.

The damage has been done :'(

Happy Teacher's Day

I would love to dedicate this entry to all teachers out there. One's life would never be the same without teachers. Due to that, i would love to wish every teacher everywhere, a Happy Teacher's Day.

Speaking about teachers, they surely have great impact in my life. They are the ones responsible making me wanting to be just like them. They have been so influential that I've been dreaming to become a teacher since i was a little boy.

Being a teacher makes me understand why one should be appreciative for what their teachers have done to them. Regardless on the amount of knowledge they taught you, most importanty they have only 1 aim... to make you successful.

To Cikgu Jamilah, Cikgu Fancy, Cikgu Anuar Boh, Cikgu Anuar Alim, Cikgu Mat Jeli, Cikgu Kang, Cikgu Sutin, Cikgu Ghani, Cikgu Tahot, all teachers from SK Hj. Kelali Semera, Cikgu Hussain, Cikgu Kalzanawati, Cikgu Nasabah, Cikgu Kadri, Cikgu Jamal, Cikgu Nizam, Cikgu Densi, Cikgu Wasan, Cikgu Mohd Ali, Cikgu Jamil, Cikgu Faridah, Cikgu Keti, Cikgu Rohani, Cikgu Siti, Cikgu Adenan, Cikgu Kho Ling Ling, Cikgu Appoloneus, Cikgu Bong Li Jun, Cikgu Azri Abdullah, Cikgu Nora, Cikgu Wasli, Ustazah Nastum, Ustaz Khairul Subhi, Ustaz Yazid, Cikgu Yus and all teachers from SMK Sadong Hilir (SEMERA)...

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY

i'm officially a BEE

Life has never been this busy before. Despite all the workloads, I could always find empty slot for a bit of spices and pure fun. Now, it's changing. Life is all about work, work...and work. I just want to share with all of you the price a teacher has to pay in order to engineer so called 'near-perfect human beings'. Teaching is not merely doing explanation (lots n lots of it), but it also involves assisting, helping, monitoring, training, typing, documenting, guiding, invigilating, scolding, marking, writing, talking, and all sorts of other gerunds.

Some teacher would officially work for 7 hours form 7am-2pm. While some would even work for more hours. Alhamdulillah, God has given everyone 24hours and everyone gets the hours equally but for teachers, (personal experience), 24 hours seem too short. Time passes so quickly and it's almost impossible to stop working as the burden would multiply by the minutes.

Some advice me not to show your capability but for me, your talents are given by God for you to share with condition that you're able to menage your time wisely doing it. Otherwise, when the bests in you dont get to be polished, it would turn rusty and eventually you'll lose it.

Ya Allah, please make the journey interesting yet easy.

just a glimpse of me

Sooo many things happened to me. Having me drowning on all sorts of feelings, sad, happy, anxious, freak out, and many more. But most of the times, sadness struck my life. No, i'm not complaining. Sorry if i sound like i'm complaining. I'm just sharing with all of you.

SAD

it's sad to know that i've lost my parents. At times, i feel like attempting suicide.The sadness is unbearable. Making things worse, i had a BIG fight with one of my brothers. A fight i didn't see coming. It was miserable. Having to know the fact that the relationship once i cherish turned into such a chaotic one is killing me.

*i wish it didn't happen

UNIQUELY ME

I am trying my best to let people know that i'm uniquely myself. I refuse to be someone else no matter what happens. Be it accepted or not, i dont give a damn. I am trying to be responsible for my own happiness and i refuse to let people around me negatively influence me and bringing me down.

*i want to be uniquely myself

WHAT I WISH TO BE

Teaching is great but i dont seem to enjoy it yet. I say yet. Having astro in my house gives me enough access to my favorite program. Anything related to fashion,cooking, designing and celebrities turn me ON. I am a big day dreamer and i dream to be a multi-talented person. I want to be a person having skills in cooking, clothes designing and other sort of planning and designing. I can cook... no problem... but i want to be a better cook. I am so jealous knowing my friends can cook better than me. And making things worse, i feel so downgraded after watching a reality series which is Junior Masterchef Australia. OMG, having to know that an 8 year old can cook far better than me makes me wanting to go for cooking class. Further supporting that thought, i am actually having a dream of opening a restaurant which would showcase the most authentic traditional Malaysian cuisine.

*designing my own clothes line

*wanting to become a great chef

I wish i'm talented, good looking and rich! I'm too 'small' for my big dreams!!!

It's been months................

It's been F**King(no offence intended) long since the last written entry. A lot has happened lately. Be it official duties or personal matters, it has made me think that i need an extra 5 hours a day. There must be a reason why God created 24 hours only each day and not 30 hours. Imagine life with 30 hours, still half of it would be dedicated to SLEEP and FUN!

So many official duties have got to be done the past few months... i mean it, months... 1 duty after another. But it has never made me stop thinking about those who are valuable in my life. Anyway, before i go any further with my nonsensical self mumbling, i would like to share with fellow readers a GREAT news!!!

Introducing my LOVE!!!
SITI AQEELA AALEESYA

Last month, my sister in law gave birth to a beautiful and healthy PRINCESS and i had the opportunity to name her. She is Siti Aqeela Aaleesya. Happens to be, she has got the same name with Erra Fazeera's daughter. It was pure coincidence. Anyway, the name is referred to a collection of arabic names and it has been choosen due to it's beautiful meaning. Aqeela means (the 'best'est) and Aalesya means (selected by God). Thus, she is the BESTest person SELECTed by GOD. ALHAMDULILLAH.

I could write more about SITI AQEELA ALEESYA but words are never enough to express my gratitude.

Would you like to know about what new things I've experience here in LS (Lawas S'wak)? I've learnt a lot and one of it is anger management. It's hard having a class of unmotivated students and trying to handle their various characters. Some are obedience while most are WILD! So, if you ask me the most suitable song for them, it's "CAN'T BE TAMED" by Milley Cyrus. Seriously, i would always feel like exploding whenever i enter this class but they are actually teaching me a valuable lesson. They makes me aware of anger management.

Dont get me wrong, i'm not complaining. I just want to share the experience with you guys with hope that you would have the best way to handle this students. Some would just love to get to your nerves. Purposely challenging you to explode because they simply would love to see you go wild too...ha3... I've lost my temper few times before and i've leant that it doesn't have any effect on them. It makes them even WILDer.

Anyway, let us not be emotionally affected by that. They are just being immature despite some of them are even taller and bigger in size. Their size doesn't reflect their maturity. Some are just nonsensically foolish while some are trying to act BIG. Either way, they are acting in such way due to the fact that they cannot foreseen the future. They do not know just how their attitudes would mold them to be somebody n the future. Looking into the matter, i believe there are 1 good news and a bad one. The good news is they can enjoy life as teenagers with having to think of duties in life and the bad news would be that most of them would regret their attitudes later on in life. If only they realize!!!

in love with this pic

love it, love it, love it... thanks to Mr. Paz for this pic.

4 sciences

technology failure.... WTF

motivate me pls

It has been 5 weeks and i dont see any sign improvement from my students. Maybe it's way too early to judge but i could have at least grabbed their attention during my lesson. I'm honestly frustrated with myself for not able to perform well. The teachers of SMK abdul Jalil were right. the 'drama' i had when i was doing my practical was only a tip of an iceberg. I am officially shocked by the frightening truth.

I have been trying a lot of methods to educate but it seems like none works on them. I'm so scared thinking about 2 of my classes would be having their exam soon and they are unprepared for it. I've seen a lot of different attitudes. in one way or another, the attitudes dont give them any advantage in life. such a waste of time. At times, i felt like scolding them but i don't think it works.

still so blur....

from a land far, far away....

I'm now in a land so far away from home. I'm currently working in Lawas, Sarawak, around few hundreds kilometers from home. It's so far that some might not even notice the existence of this place. But i love it here. It's very near to 3 places of interests namely Sabah, Labuan and Brunei. Apart, there are a lot of beautiful waterfall and recreation places here. Not forgetting, there are also several breath taking beaches and scenery. Nature lovers would really love to be here as it is still so green and not very much polluted by the development.

Anyway, i'm doing fine now. it's been a month and i'm adjusting well. i arrived here on the 22nd July and now it's now 22August, perfectly a month. Like i said earlier, i'm adjusting and it seems like everything is going as planned. I was, however, hoping for few things that Lawas can't offer but i think it's better than nothing. You can get almost everything easily here.

It's been two years in a row that i have to celebrate most of my Ramadhan days without family. Fortunately, i'l be back with them for Raya or i would be sad on that day. I spent last Raya with my adopted family in Melaka, so i have to celebrate the coming Raya with my family. I miss the kampung raya environment.

Alahamdulillah, this Raya might be a little different as i'm celebrating as a person who is employed. For the past 22 years, i've been celebrating it as a student. Now, i've come a a brand new phase of my life. For a start, i'll be paying my own zakat this year. Everything is so new to me. I have lots of new responsibilities in which i never even care about when i were a student. Everything would be arranged by my uncle who is also my mother and father at the same time. He means the world to me.

If i got my paid this month, i would be buying few things for Raya. Here are the list:
1. Cakes (3 layered cakes)
2. Paint (maybe)
3. new Raya clothes
4. some goodies for my nieces and nephews.

Wishing all my readers happy Ramadhan :)

a little update from somewhere in Samarahan

world is going to realize my stupidity. and you are wondering why... you'll see... please forgive me for not able to be a person of certain standard. i guess i'm a loser after all. It's hard, harder to bear than merely knowing about it. I guess i don't need sympathy right now. I'm learning to become someone better and now i'm on my own. Feels like stopping...quitting. I don't know how to describe what i feel but i am surely in so much pain. Ya Allah, please help me go through this. I don't have my mom and my dad on my side. Dear readers, pray for me. Please don't ask me what's going on ok. It's time to put a comma to everything... not yet a full stop.

escaping reality

My friends and me are really tensed right now. We're having KISSM exam tomorrow. You know the equivalent of exam don't you... yup, it means that we have to study and to be honest, i had enough of it after the many2 years of studying. I have lost the momentum. I hardly able to highlight the notes, what more to write it down.

Due to that, Topeq, Rifky and myself decided that we should escape the reality for a while. No,no... it doesn't mean going to game arcade, neither it means going for karaoke. It's as simple as going back to the activity we did together when we were still in IPBL last time. so, presenting...

Mangoes hunting
location: behind the IPGMBL boys' hostel
time: 1.45-2.30
date: June 18 2010

The past flashes back in my mind. i can vividly remember the time when the three of us and our seniors, Borex, Tham, Jerry, and many others used to climb the tree to plug the mangoes. Usually, the ripe mangoes would fall to the ground and we don't stand a chance to pick it as the cleaners would pick it before us. So, the only way to taste the fruit is by plugging fresh from the tree. So that was what we did. We would take excessively and divide it among us. We would have 'ulam' party and some would be turned into pickles.

Sorry juniors, i dont think you would experience the same because they're cutting down the tree as there would be s new building build there. In fact, the construction is in progress. Pity you all, he3.

Time to get back into reality guys. I have exam tomorrow so it's time to study. We're have 'ulam' party tonight. Till next time, bye.......

lunch

Had our lunch at Siswa Korner today. You never know unless you try.

suatu masa dulu

Teringat lak dengan satu lagu nie tp luper tajuk aper... lirik pun ingat sikit-sikit.

♪♪♪ "andai ada, satu hari lagi, ruang dan waktu, yang kumiliki...lalala...
maafkan aku, memang salahku, biarlah semua berlalu... ♫♫♫
(argh... cx reti lak camane nak masukkan imoticon music tu... kene copy paste lak ☻☻☻)

BTW, kalo korang tahu lagu tu, bagitau ek... Teringin lak nak dengar balik. faham-faham jer la, lagu dulu berkualti sampai kalo dengar mesti akan ingat sampai mati. Unlike lagu sekarang la. Lagu sekarang nie macam tak lekat kat telinga nie. Sekejap jer popular, then jatuh... pastu takkan dengar lagi dah. Tapi aku puji lagu-lagu ciptaan Aizat. Dia mmg sangat berbakat. Suara pun sedap. Minggu nie aku layan lagu susun silang kata dia... aku rasa dia akan ada empayar sendiri sama seperti KRU.

Bukan nak tulis pasal lagu hari nie... aku nak cakap pasal kisah hidup aku years back. Zaman carefree. Takyah nak runsing-runsing fikir itu ini. Time kecik-kecik tu, yg aku fikir were just nak makan and nak main. Asal lapar jer, aku terus balik rumah... mesti ada makanan bawah tudung saji. Tapi sebelum makan tu, meti la kene mandi dulu sebab aku nie suka main guli (**menghabiskan koleksi guli yang abag aku menang sbb aku x reti sgt main guli**), so slalu balik kotor. Kalo betul masa, aku, mak n bapak aku akan makan sama-sama. Tapi kene tunggu bapak aku dulu la sebab kitaorang di 'train' makan secara family. (**sedih lak aku mengenangkan suma nie... takkan mampu berulang lagi**)

Biler aku dalam darjah 4-6, aku aktif dalam kebudayaan. Ada jugak aku kene jadi wakil sekolah pergi pertandingan nyanyian. Suara tak sedap pun tapi aku jer antara pilihan yang ada. Pernah la menang juara sekali and naib juara sekali. Yang juara tu aku menang time aku bawak lagu "Boneka Dari India". Kenapa aku leh menang??? Sebab aku mennyanyi sambil menyanyi. Kira ada kelainan la...ha3. Selain tu, aku nie aktif gak menari. Dari tadika lagi aku dah start menari. Selalunya aku perform time orang kawin. Antara lagu-lagu yang pernah aku tarikan adalah Joget Berhibur, Ulik Mayang, and lagu-lagu dangdut :)

Dulu aku pernah jadi BF kepada sorang anak cikgu, nama dia Ridzwan. Dia nie, mmg mr bean. Muka pun dah nak dekat sama. Dia nie LAWAK sangat2 tapi kreatif... sgt2 kreatif. kitaorg suka main buat2 tempat persembunyian. Masing-masing akn cari territory untuk ktorg ubah jadi headquarters. Then ktorg akan pg melawat tempat masing2. Dia nie kira sangat hebat la. Aku lagi suka lepak kat "headquarters" dia sbb dia buat kemas and cantik. Selain tu, kitaorg suka mandi sungai kecik belakang sekolah. Pastu kitaorg akan try carik memerang. Kadng-kadang kitaorg suka kejar memerang. Susah nak dapat pengalaman macam tu sekarang.

Kalo nak cerita tentang zaman aku kecik-kecik, sampai esok pun takkan hbis tulis la. Apa yang aku tahu, kenangan zaman kecik memang antara kenangan-kenangan yang aku takkan lupa. Sayangnya aku takder gambar yang boleh aku kongsikan.

Tapi aku nak kongsi gak la dua gambar aku time sekolah menangah dulu.

Nie la best frens aku time sekolah menengah dulu

Nie lak classmates aku.