we're just being HUMAN i guess...

We are always criticising about everything.
"You drive too slow..."
"It's too expensive..."
"Gosh, my hair looks terrible..."
"hurry up! you're wasting my time..."
"that's not good enough...."
"You should do this, and that..."

Have you ever thought of accepting and trying to adapt to the situation? Have you ever thought of the negative energy you exert to the people around you?

Many people are all about the talk and seldom the 'walk'. These people are able to condemn others and what others do but fail to walk the talk when it comes to themselves. Undeniable that what they suggest would be great and sometimes briliant but it would be useless when one is just able to sceam it but fail to prove it. We can always point fingers and comment but what matter most is the capability of the one talking/suggesting. there's no point barking here and there demanding for improvement, complaining regarding the flaws and bragging about what you are capable of but fail to prove it.

No one, i repeat, NO ONE is perfect. We all have flaws and weaknesses. But, what matter most is that we acknowledge our weaknesses and try to become better all the time. And we should always remember that there's no point giving our 'brilliant' ideas when we ourselves are incapable of doing it.

but then again... I GUESS WE ARE JUST BEING HUMAN (",)

Gosh! Poor Aleezee(my car)

May 20th 2011, few days after Teacher's Day, i received a shock of my life when I heard a sudden crash sound from the back of my beloved car. It was supposed to be a good day but it ended up with an accident involving my students' motorcycle and my car. As much as I dont want to be selfish, the impact the motorcycle had on my car had crashed the bumper and i was devastated.

I dont know what people would normally do but my conscience got the best of me. I went helping the boy worrying bout his safety. He was okay, except for the minor scratches he had on his arm. No bones were broken. But my heart was definitely crushed after seeing the damage to my car. I guess it's better to have a broken bumper than having broken bones.

It was not entirely the boy's fault. I think i'm guilty for not being aware of my surrounding. Next time, when you have teenagers riding close to you, do be conscious. These boys can sometimes be reckless.

The damage has been done :'(

Happy Teacher's Day

I would love to dedicate this entry to all teachers out there. One's life would never be the same without teachers. Due to that, i would love to wish every teacher everywhere, a Happy Teacher's Day.

Speaking about teachers, they surely have great impact in my life. They are the ones responsible making me wanting to be just like them. They have been so influential that I've been dreaming to become a teacher since i was a little boy.

Being a teacher makes me understand why one should be appreciative for what their teachers have done to them. Regardless on the amount of knowledge they taught you, most importanty they have only 1 aim... to make you successful.

To Cikgu Jamilah, Cikgu Fancy, Cikgu Anuar Boh, Cikgu Anuar Alim, Cikgu Mat Jeli, Cikgu Kang, Cikgu Sutin, Cikgu Ghani, Cikgu Tahot, all teachers from SK Hj. Kelali Semera, Cikgu Hussain, Cikgu Kalzanawati, Cikgu Nasabah, Cikgu Kadri, Cikgu Jamal, Cikgu Nizam, Cikgu Densi, Cikgu Wasan, Cikgu Mohd Ali, Cikgu Jamil, Cikgu Faridah, Cikgu Keti, Cikgu Rohani, Cikgu Siti, Cikgu Adenan, Cikgu Kho Ling Ling, Cikgu Appoloneus, Cikgu Bong Li Jun, Cikgu Azri Abdullah, Cikgu Nora, Cikgu Wasli, Ustazah Nastum, Ustaz Khairul Subhi, Ustaz Yazid, Cikgu Yus and all teachers from SMK Sadong Hilir (SEMERA)...

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY

i'm officially a BEE

Life has never been this busy before. Despite all the workloads, I could always find empty slot for a bit of spices and pure fun. Now, it's changing. Life is all about work, work...and work. I just want to share with all of you the price a teacher has to pay in order to engineer so called 'near-perfect human beings'. Teaching is not merely doing explanation (lots n lots of it), but it also involves assisting, helping, monitoring, training, typing, documenting, guiding, invigilating, scolding, marking, writing, talking, and all sorts of other gerunds.

Some teacher would officially work for 7 hours form 7am-2pm. While some would even work for more hours. Alhamdulillah, God has given everyone 24hours and everyone gets the hours equally but for teachers, (personal experience), 24 hours seem too short. Time passes so quickly and it's almost impossible to stop working as the burden would multiply by the minutes.

Some advice me not to show your capability but for me, your talents are given by God for you to share with condition that you're able to menage your time wisely doing it. Otherwise, when the bests in you dont get to be polished, it would turn rusty and eventually you'll lose it.

Ya Allah, please make the journey interesting yet easy.

just a glimpse of me

Sooo many things happened to me. Having me drowning on all sorts of feelings, sad, happy, anxious, freak out, and many more. But most of the times, sadness struck my life. No, i'm not complaining. Sorry if i sound like i'm complaining. I'm just sharing with all of you.

SAD

it's sad to know that i've lost my parents. At times, i feel like attempting suicide.The sadness is unbearable. Making things worse, i had a BIG fight with one of my brothers. A fight i didn't see coming. It was miserable. Having to know the fact that the relationship once i cherish turned into such a chaotic one is killing me.

*i wish it didn't happen

UNIQUELY ME

I am trying my best to let people know that i'm uniquely myself. I refuse to be someone else no matter what happens. Be it accepted or not, i dont give a damn. I am trying to be responsible for my own happiness and i refuse to let people around me negatively influence me and bringing me down.

*i want to be uniquely myself

WHAT I WISH TO BE

Teaching is great but i dont seem to enjoy it yet. I say yet. Having astro in my house gives me enough access to my favorite program. Anything related to fashion,cooking, designing and celebrities turn me ON. I am a big day dreamer and i dream to be a multi-talented person. I want to be a person having skills in cooking, clothes designing and other sort of planning and designing. I can cook... no problem... but i want to be a better cook. I am so jealous knowing my friends can cook better than me. And making things worse, i feel so downgraded after watching a reality series which is Junior Masterchef Australia. OMG, having to know that an 8 year old can cook far better than me makes me wanting to go for cooking class. Further supporting that thought, i am actually having a dream of opening a restaurant which would showcase the most authentic traditional Malaysian cuisine.

*designing my own clothes line

*wanting to become a great chef

I wish i'm talented, good looking and rich! I'm too 'small' for my big dreams!!!

It's been months................

It's been F**King(no offence intended) long since the last written entry. A lot has happened lately. Be it official duties or personal matters, it has made me think that i need an extra 5 hours a day. There must be a reason why God created 24 hours only each day and not 30 hours. Imagine life with 30 hours, still half of it would be dedicated to SLEEP and FUN!

So many official duties have got to be done the past few months... i mean it, months... 1 duty after another. But it has never made me stop thinking about those who are valuable in my life. Anyway, before i go any further with my nonsensical self mumbling, i would like to share with fellow readers a GREAT news!!!

Introducing my LOVE!!!
SITI AQEELA AALEESYA

Last month, my sister in law gave birth to a beautiful and healthy PRINCESS and i had the opportunity to name her. She is Siti Aqeela Aaleesya. Happens to be, she has got the same name with Erra Fazeera's daughter. It was pure coincidence. Anyway, the name is referred to a collection of arabic names and it has been choosen due to it's beautiful meaning. Aqeela means (the 'best'est) and Aalesya means (selected by God). Thus, she is the BESTest person SELECTed by GOD. ALHAMDULILLAH.

I could write more about SITI AQEELA ALEESYA but words are never enough to express my gratitude.

Would you like to know about what new things I've experience here in LS (Lawas S'wak)? I've learnt a lot and one of it is anger management. It's hard having a class of unmotivated students and trying to handle their various characters. Some are obedience while most are WILD! So, if you ask me the most suitable song for them, it's "CAN'T BE TAMED" by Milley Cyrus. Seriously, i would always feel like exploding whenever i enter this class but they are actually teaching me a valuable lesson. They makes me aware of anger management.

Dont get me wrong, i'm not complaining. I just want to share the experience with you guys with hope that you would have the best way to handle this students. Some would just love to get to your nerves. Purposely challenging you to explode because they simply would love to see you go wild too...ha3... I've lost my temper few times before and i've leant that it doesn't have any effect on them. It makes them even WILDer.

Anyway, let us not be emotionally affected by that. They are just being immature despite some of them are even taller and bigger in size. Their size doesn't reflect their maturity. Some are just nonsensically foolish while some are trying to act BIG. Either way, they are acting in such way due to the fact that they cannot foreseen the future. They do not know just how their attitudes would mold them to be somebody n the future. Looking into the matter, i believe there are 1 good news and a bad one. The good news is they can enjoy life as teenagers with having to think of duties in life and the bad news would be that most of them would regret their attitudes later on in life. If only they realize!!!

in love with this pic

love it, love it, love it... thanks to Mr. Paz for this pic.