lalek la

hari ya aku balit Kuching, sik best lalu sbb sorang pun sikda plan nak kuar dgn aku. kadang2 aku rasa "ura-ura" jak lebih. boring lu jak mcm tok. dahya, sik lamak baruk berbait dgn sorang hamba Allah tok, kelaie agik. kali tok aku sik lalek. sak2, slamak tok, aku bertahan jak dgn karenah nya. aku sik pernah nak complen2. mun nya nak bersadu, aku la dicarik nya. bila nak happy2, sik nya muncul. aku sik la berkira tp aku sik suka org polah aku mcm tok. kadang2 aku rasa it's in d family. even arwah parents aku dolok pun slalu juak d jaik org. sak2, sidak duak la yang byk nulong org. time arwah ninggal, sikda pun org nak d tulong nya datang. arwah bapak aku pernah madah, what even happened to them would most likely happen to me. and i think it's true. aku rasa, sampei kinek tok aku sik cayak dgn concept best friends. sak2, friends come and go. time senang, suma nak carik. time susah, suma sik lalek. aku pernah share dgn org/kawan aku pasal rahsia2 yg sik bagus d share dgn org lain. sak2 org ya, bukak crita aku dgn org lain. SIAL!!! nya ingat aku ok. who gives u the right??? mun bena pun i would most probably share dgn org ya, ko bukan la org yang patut madah benda ya. just ask urself, SAPA BERIK KO KEBENARAN??? memandei jak. mcm bagus gilak.

malas eh...

1 of the many things that i hate the most in my life is packing and moving to a new place. this would therefore include, packing, moving, unpacking and cleaning/arranging things=energy, energy, n lots, lots of energy.

I'm in Zahir's room right now, after doing all of the above duties. I'm very sorry for my what so ever ever right now. I am not in the mood to type better English right now. I'm extremely tired and i'm so lazy that i feel like "sambung tido" though it's 12.00pm.

Actually, i have no idea what to be posted so i just simply type whatever come to my mind. argh...i have to move to Hussain later and i doing it. If only i'm rich, then i would pay people to to that for me. and one more thing, i'm going to have a new roommate and i'm hoping that he would be someone who can handle my attitudes and vice versa.

owh, by the way, we got 2nd runner up for Festival Zapin Makum 2008. Here is the vid...enjoy...

terrible day

Its Aidil Adha, no, i'm not saying it's not a good day, it is just that i had a terrible experience today. actually, when i purchase my flight ticket, i didn't know that MONDAY, 8th of Dec, is Aidil Adha. i thought it would be few days later, my bad. last night, i had a sleepless night as i was battling the army of mosquito, damn it!!! i have a lot of mosquito's bombing effect on my skin right now but it's ok, at least the army of mosquito woke me very early this morning. Upon waking up, i gathered my will and strength to go to the washroom as it was still dark and raining. All i have in my mind that time was ghosts, ghosts, and ghosts...

As told by Kim Ling, my classmate, i had to have an early journey to LCCT as it is hari raya, so it would be hard to find transportation here in semenanjung/peninsular Malaysia. so i listened and i got out from my room at 7.30. as there were no buses neither taxi, i decided to wait at the bus stop outside UKM. its not far but the problem was, it was raining!!! as it was raining cats and dongs, i decided to proceed with the plan.

i waited for almost half an hour and there were no buses still. hence, i decided to take a taxi expecting that it would cost only rm5. upon reaching the ukm terminal, the driver said, "rm10". i was shocked!!! well, i'm too naive and decided to pay. owh, on the way to the komuter, i ask the uncle how to go to LCCT from Nilai and he told me that it would be hard to go there as it's Raya. he offered to send me for ONLY RM70!!! fuck that ugly bitch. "i curse the day you were born!!!(sex & the city 2008)" he also told me that the komuter would only start it's service at 9++ am. HE LIED.

anxiously i waited for the train to come. i told myself, there were more to come...

yea, finally i reached Nilai. one problem, where's the bus station??? the not so cleaver me asked the ticket officer and again, being fooled!!! he told me," jalan terus ke bawah, then belok kanan(go straight this road and turn to the right)". i ended up at a parking lot!!! sial eh. actually, what he should tell me is "jalan terus, masuk simpang pertama sebelah kanan.(go straight and take the first junction on your right)." sik pergi sekolah kali nya ya... sbb ya ended up d counter ticket... i bet he had a good time laughing at me.

i was so tired and decided to buy drinks for myself. then i ask the shopgirl, "bus mana pg LCCT?(which bus is going to LCCT)"
she replied," bus depan ini boleh(that bus over there goes to LCCT)" i thanked her. at last, i found a noble creature. i took the bus, it was the right bus. what a relief...

upon stopping at the INTI college taman Melati's bus stop, the driver shouted while at the same time looking at me,"airport, airport." i thought that was my stop, so i went down. NOPE i was wrong, it was not my stop... i freaked out thus i phoned Kim Ling, (sorry to have botherd u that early) she told me to calm down. I was crying ok... i was in d middle of nowhere, of course i freaked out. she told me that there would be buses passing the bus stop heading to LCCT. i listened and waited. there was a bsu few minutes later. i asked for confirmation and it was the right bus.

Did i learned my lesson??? i'm not so sure. what i'm certain is that, as long as i'm naive, i'll be cheated by heartless people. i think i should check in my baggage now. bye... see you all after HOLIDAYS... enjoy your holidays.

the nerves are kicking in

OMG, the nerves are kicking in right now. i can feel my adrenaline is pumping in. its making me crazy. i'm so nervous right now. tomorrow is an important day for Adyaamatra dancers. we have to do all the best for the Festival Zapin MAKUM. we are all feeling the pressure right now. despite laughing out loud and having everyone putting relax faces, i'm very sure that they are all feeling what i feel. 1 thing for sure, we have to give our best but at the same time keep reminding ourselves not to over doing it.

few days with Queen Eva...hahaha...Borex yg disayangi

Borex's is spending his holidays in KL right now. He's actually coming here for his cousin's graduation. I'm extremely happy that i finally meet him after so long. I love him more than i love my own brothers. He's one person everybody would love to spend time with. He's lovable, funny and very down to earth. When we fetched Bor at the LCCT, it feels like i've not been meeting him for a loooooooooooong time. We directly went to KL central as Bor had to meet his cousins and his nephew there. So Hakim steadily drove us there, not knowing much about the direction yet still in control and confident. At last, we reached KL central and there, we met Vanessa, Bor's x classmate aka my senior. We were so happy to see each other. It was like dreaming, out of so many places, we met there. It was like MAGIC...hahaha...lebih2...

Later that night, we met Bor's cousins, Hendry x2 and his nephew, Rommy@Rommie. Hendry x2 were just arriving there from KLIA. there, the met Rommy who is studying in USM campus KL and he is staying in Puchong. As the 2 Hendrys have no place to stay, so Rommy invited them to stay with him. Most of his roomates have gone back to their home town so he thought it would be best if Hendry x2 and Bor stay with him. So there they were, in KL central, thinking how to go back to Puchong. At first they decided to take a Taxi but is was so expensive so at last i suggested Hakim should drive them to Puchong instead of taking taxi. We ended up 'SARDINE'izing ourselves in the Kancil, 6 people squeezing ourselves and trying to survive until we reach our destination in which the road Rommy failed to recall. After taking a wrong entry, we ended up in Seputih, somewhere we are all unfamiliar with. I noticed few -ve and few +ve of Malaysian cars that night. [(-ve) -Kancil is so damn small!!! squeezing 6 people gave me a terrible back bone pain. Unless you are a gymnast, do not dare to to do so. ] [(+ve) -Despite small, Malaysian cars are very fuel savvy. We all had a terrible time searching for gas station. As Hakim only filled the tank with RM10 in which i dont know the equivalent in liter, maybe around 4-5 liters, we thought that the tank would be empty but we magically survive.]

We reached Rommy's place at around 2 a.m. and we were all so tired. We had a little chat and not forgetting a little supper of the "KOLOK MEE" that Bor bought and brought all the way from Sarawak. Thanks Bor... at least i got to relief the feelings of missing Sarawak so badly. Later, everyone dozed to sleep and we woke up rather early that morning as Hakim and I had to go back and get ourselves clean before we can proceed with the next plan with Bor.

Later that day...

Bor, Hakim and I went to the Mines and later to Midvalley. In Midvalley, we jumped from one shop to another. There were like trillion of people crowding Midvalley. I hate going there during school holidays. It give me a terrible headache seeing too many people there. Besides, it would be dangerous too. There are too many hand smiths aka pickpockets in Malaysia. After few hours, Hakim and I had to bid farewell as i have a dance practice that night. Bor and the rest proceeded to somewhere Bor calls "Kotaraya", hehehe...

at first, i picked the on that Bor wears and Bor picked the one that i wear. Eventually, we bought what we wore...so it was like Bor picked for me and I picked for him.

As usual, Hakim is on serious diet...doa2 la nya kurus. nya nak kurus mcm Afiq bah.





muka2 penat lepas round2 Midvalley.



Bor kenja!!! That's Kime in the middle. Hakim's friend.

The next day...

The next day was a day i wont be able to forget. A day full of tickling memories. I joined Bor and the rest to Sunway Piramid, a place i've always wanted to go. We went ice skating, yea!!! I was a first timer. I've never skate before. It was very frightening keeping myself balance on the slippery ice and at the same time trying to avoid crushing into people but i sure have got myself crushed into someone that day. Rather personal but if you with to know, do text me...hehehe. Nothing la actually but it is surely unforgettable. After almost 2 hours of making myself a total clown in the ice field, i fell. Upon rising, i SAW.....................a big hole on my jeans, right between my legs!!! It was embarrassing!! It was the most humiliating moment in my life. I wonder for how long it has been in that way and how many people saw it!!! DAMN it!!! Argghhhhhhhhhhhhh... Quickly I took small steps heading to the exit. hahaha...it was surely very embarrassing and Bor and the rest just cant stop teasing me. Later i went to buy a new pair of jeans. I had to use Rommy's sweater for cover, hahaha....

On my way to Rommy's place in Puchong. Look at the girl on the right hand side, the one in kind of red tudung, she gave me goosebumps. She stared at me for almost 30minutes.



The Taxi driver did a crazy thing. He made U turn at the highway!!! it was frightening.



waiting for taxi at the ugly temporary taxi stand.



Here I am. Love the decor.



Rommy and I before skating.



Here i go...ready, get set, skate...



Had to use the sweater as a cover...hehehe..



a day to remember...



look at that!!! isn't that humiliating???

I think that's all for now. I'll update when i have something nice to write about ok...chow chin chow...

that's it, get out!!!

The semester has come to an end. I had to pack my things and move out. Fortunately, Hakim is able to stay in his room all holiday long. Thus, i ended up staying in his room. Well, the room is a little small but it's better than not having anyway to stay. I hate packing. I have a lot of things in my room. it takes me like centuries to finish packing. Anyway, here are some pictures of the mess that i did while packing.









I hate it when i have to pack and move. My room was a mess, hahaha...but i've clean it.

i hate it when you dont even try...i'm tired

There have been a lot of things going on this few weeks and one which has the biggest impact in my life right now is the crisis that i'm in with my friend. Let us be a little secretive by not naming the person but i hope this wont bring any "side effects" to those who might think they are actually the ones who i'm having this little crisis with. Anyway, my close friends would have known this so there wont be any misunderstanding regarding the person that i am describing. Life have been so wonderful so far with the existence of my dearly friends. They have been very understanding and supportive so far. I personally pray that there wont be any big issues that would break the friendships apart like what is happening to one of my friends. Being unable to accept who i am, this person has slowly withdrawn him/herself from my life. I'm very sure that this person does not read my blog, though i wish that he/she is. Anyway, for almost 5 years knowing this person, i have grown learning the fact that it has been a very common issue having a little fight with this person but i have not figure out how to solve it. Things between the two of us have not been better. Supposedly, after one fight to another, we grow more mature and we learn to strengthen the relationship but for the two of us, it happens the other way around. Its is either i'm to be blamed or it's his/her fault, or maybe we just dont have the chemistry to even be friends. The thing is, it seems like only this particular person is always having this problem with me. Maybe it happens because of expectation; of what i expect from the relationship and not having that fulfilled. It is just so frustrating when everytime this person and I fight, I would be the first one to approach and it has come to the extent in which this person has forgotten that he/she should take that role too sometimes. Anyway, life is too short and time is too precious to be bothered about this small issue. But it hurts though. And even when i'm trying not to think of this, say, the emancipation of this unwanted feelings, i still feel very upset that this is happening to me. I just wish that God would make me busier so that I dont even any wasted second thinking of the crisis. To that person, if you're reading this, i want you to know that i'm trying to be fine. Thanks for making my life so miserable.