>>>boleh!!!<<<

i had 2 strange dreams yesterday; one in the morning and the other while i was taking a my nap...

the first one was seriously not i wish for... i had a wet dream with someone i have never thought of having it with... i've told Ambun about the dream. seriously, though "best", but that person is not someone i would ever wish to be with...hehehe...(terpaksa la "sahaja aku mengangkat hadas besar....) scary aie, sik sangka la pulak boleh melibatkan dr dalm wet dream dgn that person. tiba2 pagi ya, ada org padah nya ada wet dream dgn me...hehehe.... ya lagi lucu la...hehehe... i wonder la gine???

ok, the next dream was about mdm So. in the dream, she called my on my hp asking me whether i have time for a small chat with her. "its about the assignment..." she sadi...ok ya nang scary la... dah la today is her paper... apakah petanda itu??? alu la study for her paper, so that she wont disturb my beauty sleep after this.

esok nak tgk "LOVE", suma gara2 Hakim... tiba2 padah nya suka crita ya. though sama jak dgn "CINTA" (versi malaysia (tok pun sik tangga)), LOVE dkatakan lebih kecil budget pembkinan. kan senang di Indon, suma benda murah. tp rakyatnya ngutik eh, sungguh menakutkan. ok, tibe2 ngantok... so till the next entry..chow chin chow...

>>>SiK KiSaH La<<<

aku dah biasa dah hilang kawan so i dont give a damn mun aku terpaksa hilang lg sorang. hei, aku dah hilang parents aku k...that's the worse... sikda masa aku nak susah hati dgn org yg sik hormat org lain sbg kawan. mun ko ttp ego, aku akan lebih ego. bukan aku lupa budi, sik kenang jasa tp ada benda remain unexplained bah. neway, aku harap ko happy dgn hidup ko.

>>>"love" is a word hard to say"<<<

rindu....sik mok la padah rindu nagn sapa...hehehe... kelak pech lop kelak...sik la... rindu dgn semua org bah... makin menjadi-jadi prasaan tok coz i'm about to leave IPBL. rasa mcm byk gik benda perlu settle sbelum pergi UKM. dah la bakal meninggalkan org2 yg mungkin susah nak d jumpa agik unless i balik swak... setiap yg bertemu, pasti akan berpisah...kelak2 pun bila ajal sampei, berpisah juak bah... to all my friends yang akan masih d IPBL, teruskan usaha to make IPBL disegani oleh institut lain.. we're the best k...

>>>exam tok sik best eh...sikda rasa nak blaja<<<

aih, kinek tok sbenarnya tgh study tp malas eh... so ended up browsing net and updating my friendster, myspace, tagged... and finally blog... ok2, berebut tok. Julian ajak pg lunce kat Mc D...sak2 marek seharian sik klaka coz memikirkan belanjawan yg tersgt la byk... byak duait dah habis, sak2 baru 1 week eh... tiba2 la tadik dewi bacakan pasal pisces...nang tgh jd insan yg kuat belanja...so need to be aware la... time2 exam pun boleh blanja besar, apa gik la time cuti kelak... ok la...that's all for now...chow chin chow...

>>>sidak tok...busy eh<<<

kinek tok dlm bilit a fren, eh salah, frens...tp, kesian eh nagn kmk, sidak tgh busy on phone tok... sian kmk left alone sik klaka tp sik ada la, at least bilit tok ada internet so that i can update my blog...

exam tadik sik best aih... marks allocation besar gilak. salah jawap blh gagal bah... nang cabaran la. though org padah sik bagus kenang balit, tp susah bah, mcm sik best jak mdm tan allocate markah besar gilak... (stuju sik cohort 3?)

lepas exam, pg nangga wayang. crita apa, congkak...hari ya dah janji nagn nana eh... tp sikpa, mun nan ajak, pg agik la...hehehe... best giler crita ya.sik sangka sanggup tangga though terjerit mcm nak gila. malu eh ngan sidak lain...hehehe... tp sik kisah la, ya one way nak enjoy myself bah, sak2 pasya takut...hehehe... nasib ada rumet sik perlu tido d bilit org...(sesungguhnya sidak tok khusyuk klaka...sedih aih...sik kenak layan..hehehe)

sikda rasa nak exam la...rasa sedih overpowered rasa nak exam... sik lamak gik nak kuar dr maktb tok...huhuhu...kenangan... sitok la slalu jatuh, angkat balit...then terus berlari laju, sikpun, berjalan jak semata-mata nak capai target, tp sadly, lately focus lari giler. dlm kelas nang sik focus lansung. pura2 dgr tp sbenarnya datang and pulang dr kelas ya kosong jak. neway, thanks to Dewi for spending her time studying with me...fun gler. mun sik mcm ya, sik blaja la, alu duduk exam koong jak la...serious aih... bak slalu padah ngan dr mary, "browse2 sik dpt. sik jumpa prerequisite knowledge ya...hehehe..."

okey la, dah mengantok...GTG... till the next entry, chow chin chow...

sik tauk eh gine nak letak lagu @ vid, tp chrt 3, do listen to Say goodbe by S Club 7...

>>>Patah tumbuh hilang berganti<<<

Kenangan; yg patah akan tumbuh semula, yg hilang akan berganti. Sememangnya orang melayu lama begitu ‘observant’ dan bijak dalam memilih pepatah yang menggambarkan reality kehidupan sebenar. “patah tumbuh, hilang berganti” is a saying undeniably true.

‘Friendship’, satu ungkapan yang sukar dijelaskan kesahihannya. Memang senang untuk mengungkapkan “he/she is my best friend” tp akan yang menjadi kayu ukur untuk menentukan siapa kawan, rakan, teman, sahabat dan cinta. Realitinya, kebanyakkan akan melabel seseorang kawan sebagai sahabat sebagai seorang/ kawan2 tempat menyimpan rahsia dan tempat mengadu.

There are few things that we’re unable to tell our parents or even our siblings, that is when we’ll go to our best friends; telling them thing that unbearable by us alone. Our friend will listen, but sometimes, they just don’t bother. Or maybe we’ll say someone as our best friend when we share the same interest. Take singing as an example, just because we share the same interest, it doesn’t mean we can be best friends. So how is it to identify best friends? Is it someone that we miss a lot? Is it someone that we ask for help? Is it someone that we dream of? It’s so hard. Sometimes, we’ll get confused between love and friendship. I’ve always had that problem. Our gf/bf can be our best friend but can our best friends be our bf/gf? Think about it...

Have you even felt that your best friend is being very secretive, not telling you thing that they think as private, but telling it to other people rather than you, who should be trusted. Well, i guess i always feel that. It makes me think that that person is not trusting you enough but why does that person tell someone else than? Is that person trustworthy? This is what may change my day miserable. Maybe, just maybe, that person feels rather uncomfortable sharing it with me so that person feels that it is better to “mengadu domba” with others.

I used to uphold ‘friendship’ but not anymore. I don’t really trust the term called ‘friendship’ i mean having a best friend. But i cant deny the fact that i am close with some people that maybe can be called best friends but its really hard to make up my mind. Its painful to lose a friend what more a best friend. Till the next entry, chow chin chow...

>>>I would love to make your world wonderful, but...<<<

The fear of loosing someone important has emerged again. As i thought, either side would stand and tell the truth; the feelings that they have inside, the burden so heavy no one would be able to handle. Its not actually a surprise, i’ve been expecting things to happens. The words, the sacrifices, the intimacy, the treatment, the sulking, everything, it was just so obvious. But why me, i’m not perfect. I don’t want to be a jerk later. I’m just not ready for it. I’m too playful, rather too insensitive to be part of your life. I’m not denying the feeling that i have but rather i want it to be something that i’m ready for. Believe me, when the time comes, it would be a magical moments that none of us can resist. We’ll be together...

>>>dunia ku sungguh "animated"<<<

hm... sik da idea eh nak tulis apa kali tok. mcm sik da benda jak berlaku selain exam yg bakal tiba...masalahnya, sik da mood nak blaja la. mcm sik maok jak nak blaja, mcm rs nak main2 sentiasa eh. kan best mun dpt hidup kedak ya. owh lupak, this few days, i've been listening to weird songs, songs that i've never thought i would listen to. recently, i'm listening to Amy Winehouse, Colbie Caillat and Leona Lewis; owh n Jones Stones too. seriously, they have some great songs in their albums.i would want to make a list of their songs but i think you betterdownload their songs because we appreciate things if we work for it.

owh yea, apart from listening to new songs, i also noticed that i've been looking at the blue sky, the coulds and dream; dream of a kingdom on the bed of cloud. for those yg pernah tgk doraemon, time sidak polah rymah air... ha, mcm yalah kingdom that i imagine. i'm the king la...hehehe... best aih... sik akan pernah panas...sejuk jer...hehehe.... tp bukan sejuk tahap beku la, sejuk2 best.. kat kingdom ya, semua benda ada. ala2 heaven la. just name it, semua termakbul...(betul ka bahasa)

tauk sik, the thing that i'm going to miss so much when i'm leaving for ukm is "ABC Ah Tan"...hehehe... sik sanggup membayangkan hidup tanpa ABC susu segar Ah Tan eh... mcm satu kehilangn besar jak dlm hidup... go go go Ah Tan...Afundi Ah Tan... aih...sedih eh...nak tinggalkan gerai makan abg mek gik..huhuhu... surely miss my brother's and sis's cooking. aduh, susah la...berat alu rasa nyawa nak pergi tok...

so plan cuti tok, tlg abg kat kedei... makan semua jenis masakan nya n blaja masak skali.. so kelak2, mun pergi rumah kawan kat semenanjung kelak, boleh la masaak2. sik la nak menumpang jak kerja...hehehe...masalhnya, ada ka org nak jemput ke rumah...hehehe...sik malu alu jak polah2 plan ke rumah org. sik kisah la...anything can happen bah... in the mean time, i just pray that my future would be bright and lovely.

>>>haruskah ku meratapi<<<

sekarang tok, semua dalam TESL link IPBL-UKM tengah merenung masa lalu saat mula2 masuk IPBL. it was so sweet during that time. semua org tersangat la naive. semua org do not have any gambaran ttg this course. tp lepas ya, semua mula improve though according to their own pace; ada org improve byk, ada org improve sikit...terpulang la, janji improve.

apa yg best, semua org dah pandei bercakap d depan. dolok2 semua org ada perasaan inferior dgn kawan2 masing2 tp skarang, 30 minit sik cukup pakei ngerepak sorang2; nak mintak gik masa lebih...hehehe... apa yang penting, we all support each other no matter what happen, sik kira la kita kawan bait ka, sik berkawan ka, @ we're in the middle of a fight.sad as it may sound, bukan semua org suka dgn cara kita tp sik kisah la. "we live for ourselves" so sik perlu la nak please semua org. cukup la mun kita tok bukan kera yg sumbang...kesian kera, nya juak kenak...hehehe....

terlalu byk benda yg TESL3 dah polah; dalam maktab, luar maktab, tepi maktab, atas maktb...hehehe...over la pulak... we have shown to the world that despite lemah academically, we're unique and lovable. people can point at us and say "that's our TESL3". the one and only TESL3. we're great, talented, and i think we're undeniable the best!!! at least we're confident that we are the best walaupun mungkin we're not. semua org ada kehebatan, kebolehan, and their own special traits to be proud of.

hari demi hari, perjalanan di IPBL dah nak tamat. banyak yang kita dah kutip along the way. byak juak yang kita dah cicirkan. yang penting now is that kita semua mesti berjanji sikkan pernah lupak kawan. jangan sesekali biarkan our friends terkapai2.

"Ya Allah, sinari la jalan bg TESL IPBL cohort 3. semoga jalan yg bakal dihadapi kurang likunya. semoga kan ditemui kekuatan bagi menguatkan kaki sepanjang perjalanan ini. Ya Allah, bantu setiap seorag dari kami dan perliharalah kami dari godaan duniawi. Ya Allah, Kau berkatilah persahabatan kami ini, semoga berkekalan hendaknya. Ya Allah, jadikanlah kami ini insan2 berkualiti, serta insan2 yg bersedia mengharungi liku2 yang bakal kami temui. Amin."

>>>i've lost my sense of friendship<<<

i used to treasure a friendship that i thought to be the one that i can hold o to. now, its gone; totally. rasa sik best jak tulis dlm eng, x dpt nak express feelings. lets make it mix la ho. dolok2 i used to be very angry when people gave negative remarks about friendship because i treasure friendship as something sacred. tp skarang i can understand the reason why people do not have faith in friendship; simply because they have been experiencing very sad moments when with their friendship circle. mungkin ada org susah nak faham tp i just hope that these people wont be experiencing the same thing as its very sad to lose a fren.


sapa maok berjaik... pasti sik da. suma org maok kekal tp smtimes things happen. the very hard thing to do is to satisfy your friends. they may come from different groups of people so this may make it hard for one to satisfy both parties. no one should be blame though. we should all try to understand what one may be facing but i guess some failed to do that.


its has been happening so many time, not only me, but to other people as well. face it, dont you think you too might be the cause of the problem??? well, if you're so confident that you're not, i cant do anything. if along the way one may lose his/her friends because his/her true reason not asking for forgiveness from his/her friends is due to the fact that he/she wants his/her friends to understand that they might be the cause of the conflict, i think it's fair enough. "the thought is what matter right...."


life is just like a drama. we're the actors and actresses. sad as it may sound, the show will end anyway. so just play our part; make it the best, you'll might win an award for that. sometimes, things do not go as plan because we can only plan but the Almighty is the one that controls everything. He can give us anything, even those that is unthinkable, but he can also take it back that instance.

>>>crazy/weird stuff<<<

this time around, i just want to share what i got from the net; such useful thing...

this pic of a man(shall i say, a PEREM MONS) is just too hilarious and i cant help myself not inserting it in this entry...



i dont know whether this is for real but anything can happen. this can be possible.



this pic of a man with a disease is so scary. i'm glad that i'm not born that looking like that.



i think this is a waterhorse...

for more weird stuff, check this websites and links.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MK0QVwooKTI&feature=relate
http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-epFXsZ85dKlqC7tDmPACPKTchPEXBA--?cq=1&tag=creaturesoftheouteredge
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8NucBStGWE&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wR-NJ9NWQHw&feature=related
http://www.boingboing.net/2005/05/15-week/

>>>i'm not a fool<<<

hi, meet the new me...a dark angel...so what if i'm dark??? proud to be one!!!

its been long since the last last entry. i kinda have so many drafts for my blog but i refuse to upload the simply because my blg is too wordy... so, this time around, i'm gonna express myself in the form of graphics (perlu ka padah...)
neway, (nak padah juak) i'm foled by my broadband... ingatkan d sekat, check2, dpt on9... susah2 jak hidup bosan tanpa internet slama sehari...hehehe....rugi alu jak....

i'm hurt deep inside, should i burst???



You think you're perfect but i think u suck!!! you dont even know what your mistakes are and you have never ask for apology...so what the hell are you thinking when you think you're good!!!


though i hate you, your secret will remain as one. i know more of you than any other people, trust me, the fact that i'm not telling anyone is a prove that i'm not worth to be treated this way...



you shall not be treated as one anymore because i dont believe in the existence of best friends!!!


despite the fact that you make me sad, i'll never let that pull me down. i'm gonna be fuckin happy though i dun like ur bad aura in my environment!!!

>>>Khayalan bukan reality...mungkinkah kan terjadi<<<

There was 1 day when i talked to a fren, sharing our feelings and dissatisfaction towards the world, the changing world of frenship. When then came to a conversation about our fantasy; the so wonderful, forever beautiful fantasy. Guess wat, we shared the same fantasy...totally the same dream and hope...so cute la...hehehe....

Ok, let me tell u wat is it soo wonderful about the fantasy that my fren and i share... we act want the same thing...namely a wonderful cottage and an animated life...ala like cartoon one la... we had too much of cartoon la i guess...

Ok, about the cottage, it should not be too big, neither too small...just nice la... then, there should be a mountain at the back and a small waterfall in front... eatable wild berries at the side of the cottage and few apple trees here and there...

Wah3, best giler.... in the morning i’ll wake up and smeel the fresh smells of the waterfall, drink my coffee and at the same time listen to the singing of the birds at the balcony. The sound of the waterfall is not that loud so i’m able to listen to the birds’ singing, just beautifully along with the sound of the small waterfall. Sip my coffee and eat my home made apple pie, so sweet and fresh.

In the noon, i’ll sit at the back of my house, reading books. Beside me is a coffee table with my home made coffee and newly baked bread with wild berries jam.hm..so nice, isn’t it.

Owh, its time for dinner. Wat do i have for dinner??? I’ll be having baked salmon, fresh from the waterfall, with cheese as its topping. Fresh apple juice and a slice of apple cup cake as desert.

At night, before i go to bed, i’ll open my bedroom window and look outside. I can see shooting stars. OMG, isn’t it nice if it becomes a reality. Guys, tell me about urs...

>>>FANTASI sebuah KERINDUAN<<<

Wah... nama blog tok nang best.... kmk rasa la...hehehe... dah berhari-hari sedih, its time to rejoice back. Ada masa kita marah, expressive, sedih, suka, everything terpulang dgn kita. So i guess, i should make myself happy now. Sorry guys for spoiling ur days with my ‘luahan hati’ the pas few blogs. I hope u’ll understand as some may misunderstand the true reason for these blogs.

“fantasi sebuah kerinduan”...sounds like atypical malay novel. But i dun read novel, not English, neither malay. I hate reading coz i think i have had enough during class. Ok la, this blog is on my fantasy, a fantasy of a never ending story: a story full of happiness, nothing else than happiness.

My fantasy is about my heaven. A self created heaven where i’m free to do whatever i like. Think of chocolate that wont make u fat and everything that u wish for, would just ‘pop’ at that moment when u want it; anything... i do think that is how the true heaven of Allah would look like; as claimed by my ustaz la. Things in there are all good for u, none will bring harm. Wow, isn’t it great...

But, we haven’t come to the best part yet. Think of having ur desired couple beside u for eternity. Eg... Hai and her dream guy, Ronaldo...then it would be the most desirable dream isn’t it. I would want someone special for m too. Someone who knows best in and out... “Nana, the superjunior would be nice...hehehe”

My dream is to have Misha Omar with me, singing whole day long. She’ll sing and once a while she’ll ask me to sing along with her.

k...blog tertangguh 4 days dah....malas eh, lamar jak busy dgn assignment. That’s not a fantasy at all. Bact to reality la pulak, sik best.... its better to be in my shell, protected and keep on dreaming of happy stuff. Then kan, ada la Julian memperkenalkan crita indon baru,lupak dah nama crita ya...best k. Crita seorang insane yangdalam dilemma membuat pilihan, kesian... yg best, mata pelakon ya best....besar...hehehe... mcm lukisan Jepun slalu ya...cute bah...

sik maok eh hidup mcm pelakon ya, i mean spt yang digambarkan la. Susah k membuat pilihan. Mun tersalah, memti ada org sik suka. Sik pun, ada masa bila kita perlu membuat pilihan antara 2 most important things, that’s when kita akan rasa its better to be left alone. Susah nak puaskan hati semua org k. By the way, tis reminds me of cerita pasal sorang tua bersama anaknya and seekor keldai. Malar jak org tua tok kenak anok bila nya melintasi satu kampung and kampung2 yg lain. Nya ikut suggestion setiap kampung coz sidak complen bah tp pandangan setiap satu masyarakat kmpung ya berbeza... maksudnya, susah nak puaskan hati semua org, my motto now, “kita hidup utk dr sendiri,sik perlu la nak paksa2 org bahagiakan kita, bahagiakan la hidup sendiri”.

K la, nak simpan sikit idea lain for posts to come. Till then bye...