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Tuesday, September 9, 2008

>>>solitary<<<


The voices...its making me sad.

Before coming for UKM, i could still remember my plan not going back to my kampung for raya. I told my late father repeatedly and he was seriously worried, begging me not to do so. He had never wanted to be apart from me. He had never failed to show how much he loved me. I was on the other hand felt rather embarrassed to show him just how much i love him. “Dad, i love u so much...if only u knew...” Now the memories flash back. The dialogues i had with him keep repeating itself in my head and its consuming my happiness, living only and empty space of guilt and sadness. Though i’m happy that i have a ticket going back for raya, but there’s nothing to be happy about. The reason why people return to their home is because they wish to meet their beloved ones... But for me, the 2 VVIP of my heart is no longer waiting for me, coming to them. How i wish i can call home, answered by these two VVIPs, and talking on the phone, telling them that I can’t wait to return for Raya but that’s not possible. I know, my friends will tell me,”Sap, be strong....” thanks for that dear friends but these feelings of loneliness, sadness, and solitary are just unbearable.

7 comments:

lovelyeyna said...

sap... mok nangis kmk oleh ktk... dah nangis pun dah... hehe... be strong, yes, be strong :) you're not alone. you still have your brothers who love you dearly. you still have us who love you to pieces too! most importantly, you have Allah SWT yang sik putus-putus berik rahmatnya dengan ktk. semoga roh mak dan bapak ktk dicucuri rahmat Yang Maha Esa, amin ya rabbal alamin...

ash_mirza said...

jgn dikenang glak kesedehan ya...as cliche as it sounds la, u still hv others around u....so dun think negatively....pray for the best k

Nana said...

Sapri....u made me cry. Kmk tauk it's easier said than done. Tapi sbg kwn kitak, kmk doakan kitak tabah menghadapi semua tok. Walaupun ktk mdh VVIP sikda nunggu p bila kitak ziarah kubur daknya kelak, kitak akan sedar kepulangan kitak sbenarnya bermakna..bulan yg mulia tok, doakanlah kesejahteraan daknya di sinun. Doa seorang anak untuk ibu bapanya amat penting...Be strong sapri!

Hairunisa said...

sabar jak la Sap.. you are never alone.. byk doa k sidak k..

BuMbLe BooGiE said...

lovely friends... mek tauk ktk org sentiasa ada bersama, thanks so much... its just that i am missing them so much that its unbearable. thanks for the love. i love u guys. u are my strength.

Anonymous said...

salam sap. p
tauk nak bila bulan puasa tuk,syaitan akn dirantai tetapi roh2 muslimin dan muslimah akan dibebaskan daripada seksaan kubur sepanjang bulan ramadhan tuk?
aku sokong padah dewi. Your VVIPs besama kau kinek tuk. cdak ada disekeliling kt utk tgk apa yg kt polah.cdak merhati sap. so, aku harap, ko akn sentiasa ingat yg, walaupun cdak dah pergi, tapi cdak masih sentiasa bersama kau, dimana2 pun ko berada. cdak akn sentiasa dan sik putus2 doa akn kejayaan kau.
Rabbil fighli waliwalidaiya warhamhuma rabbanani sighoro
Amin.

Steve said...

i feel sorry for you sap...
most importantly, be strong and u shd knw that both of your VVIPs are always with u...in yr heart...in yr mind...pray for them...that's the best u can do...