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Friday, November 27, 2009

mood tetiba di

depanku satu keluarga

cina bangsanya

bersama mereka, org gajinya

keluarga bertiga, bersama pembantu rumah yg dibayar olehnya

manusia...

rambut suma sama, hati pasti berbeza

tapi keluarga ini nampak baik orangnya

sesekali, bertanya si ibu pada pembantu rumah itu

seperti dia juga ambil berat ttg perihal pembantu rumahnya

kalau semua keluarga berpembantu rumah begitu

pasti BAHAGIA... 

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Konsert Seribu Warna



I'm going to Koser Seribu Warna tonight. I'm not a big fan of Siti Nurhaliza but I'm always amazed with her showmanship. I've watched her perform live once for Anugerah Bintang Popular singing Ditaman Teman. She mesmerized the crowd with her beautiful vocal, sounds like listening to CD.

Well, the whole "going to this concert" event is rather impromptu. Amirul, a friend of mind, got the ticket from his friend. The actually price for the combo of 3 tickets was RM189 but he got it for only RM100. So he thought it would be great nice if i could come and i agreed. With that price, who doesn't.

Right now i'm waiting for our friends to drive us there. I'm just afraid of traffic jam. Anyway, looking forward to see Siti Nurhaliza, the Malaysian one and only Diva of the Divas, perform. See ya...

Monday, November 9, 2009

Not again...

It has never been easy living without my parents. I miss them so much right now. I'm not trying to tell you just how fragile I am but i would want you all to appreciate your beloved ones; your mom, your dad, your uncle, your aunt, your grandmother and grandfather, your brothers and your sisters. Life would not be the same after losing them. Trust me, I've had a great lost myself. 

I miss my mom, my mak. She was one of the person who would always be there for me. When i was in pain, i would run to her. She was in great pain when she was on her death bed. I was so hopeless. I wasn't able to do anything to help her. She had suffered so much to bear her 7 children and having them all well taken care off. It's very true when people say that a mother would be able to take care her children but her children would be able to do the same. My mom was a great mom. Before she left, she taught me how to survive on my own. She taught me how to cook, clean up, wash my clothes and most importantly she thought me so much about life. She taught me to be grateful of what i have. Learn how to give without hoping anything in return. She taught me to be who i am right now. Mak, sorry if ever i hurt your feelings. Al-Fatihah buat arwah mak; Ambah bin Labot. Rindunya kat mak. 

I miss my dad, my apak. The man who taught me so much of how to not be cruel to those who treat you cruel. Never had he talk bad stuff about people. He would alway smile at me, showing his gum, he would look so funny. I can still remember when he joined me in my 'ulam buah asam' session, he would bring with him a 'lesung batu' to actually crush the 'asam'. Well, it doesn;t need much to know that he didn't really want to eat, but he all he wanted was to be with me, to actually join me and show me just how he loved having me with him always. I once promised him that I would want him to stay with me when I am working later. But it seems like that would not be possible.Pak, sorry if ever i broke your heart. Al-Fatihah buat arwah ayah; Junai bin Amin. Rindunya kat ayah.

I don't think I can handle the feelings of losing people I love. Ya Allah, panjangkan usia ahli keluargaku. Semoga aku pergi dulu sebelum mereka. 

Aku, nota dan dia.



Bukan pasal aku study dgn someone on my side. Nope! That would be cliche' kan. Skarang pukol 10.04 and aku tengah study tadi. Baca2 dan buat nota sikit untuk paper esok. Nervous gak nie sebab aku tak tahu aper benda kuar esok. Aku baca2 sambil layan internet... last2 internet empowered aku...wakaka. Well, aku maen la internet kejap, baca-baca blog member. Ramai tak update lagi. Ader jugak update simple-simple tapi tak per. Yang penting aku tahu serba sedikit aper yang berlaku dalam life diaorg. Owh, mcm nie. Aku baca blog sorang member nie, a blog worth reading la. Sorry, not going to tell you...hehehe. Anyway, dalam blog tu, ader entry baru. And entry tu ader 1 comment by someone aku boleh kata aku tak suka. So aku kira nak komen gak, tapi niat tu terbantut bila ader orang tu. Last2, aku tulis la blog nie ha. Kira macam mengadu kat korang la...mcm budak2 plak aku rasa, hehehe... K la. tu jer kot for today. Doa-doakan la aku jawap dengan brilliant esok ok. Bye~

She replied!!!

You might be thinking who is 'she' I'm talking about. She is the beautiful and gorgeous MISHA OMAR!!! Last Saturday night, around 1 in the morning, i found out that Kak Misha updated her status after so long. I was so happy to hear from her that i commented on her status. After doing so, I thought it would be great if i can have a little chat with her so i checked my friend's chat list. There she was, Samihah Omar or Misha Omar appeared on-line for maybe the first time. I was damn happy and started to chat with her. Unfortunately, there was something wrong with her FB or maybe her device that she was unable to spend the time replying my messages. She did, however managed to reply my salam. Thanks Kak Misha, you don't know just how glad i am when you replied. Thanks to screen capture, I'm able to prove it to you. Behold...


p/s ---> is you're reading this, i just want you to know that i would be praying for your success alway. Take care :P

Monday, November 2, 2009

Aku je? Ko plak?

Aku bukan berkira, bukan nak mengungkit, bukan tak ikhlas... Tapi aku rasa bosan la macam nie, asyik aku jer nak layan ko macam Raja. Aku bukan nak ko treat aku macam Raja gak tapi acknowledge my existence please. Aku bukan puppet kot... Aku pun ada perasaan gak. Susahnyer la macam nie. Aku tak suka, tapi nie jer cara terbaik yang aku anggap boleh benefit aku sendiri walaupun aku rasa macam sedih gak biler perasaan "only giving" tu timbul.

Aku pun nak jugak rasa ada orang hargai aku, always there for me, tanyer aku kalo2 aku lapar ker, sedih ker... tapi ko tak macam tu. Mungkin ko dah terlalu bahagia dalam hidup ko kot, dikelilingi oleh insan-insan yang boleh bagi ko semua benda yang ko wish to have.

Argh... lantak la. Aku just harap yang one day nanti ko akan perasan kewujudan aku. TAk kira la bila... Yang pernting, time tu nanti, ko akan carik number aku and bgtau aku how you miss me...hehehe

Friday, October 30, 2009

When I was a young boy...

sorry... let this one be in BM k...hehehe

Inagtkan nak study, tapi baca punya baca, x masuk-masuk jugak. Dah, aku give up! So aku bukak la Facebook. Aku letak la status aku, "what the am i reading". x lama pastu, Nate comment, then kawan aku plak komen. Kawan lama. Dari darjah satu lagi kitaorg kenal. Salah sorang daripada kawan baik aku. Actually, kitaorg slalu jer ber'sms' tp hari nie lain sikit. Tiba-tiba dier reminded aku pasal zaman skolah aku bila dia start cakap pasal time aku join pertandingan nyanyian sekolah-sekolah peringkat daerah. Time tu aku bawak lagu dangdut. Tajuk dier Boneka Dari India. Time tu aku Juara... maner tak nyer, sambil nyanyi, aku menari-nari. Kire aku la batch penyanyi budak-budak pertama yang daring time tu. Hadiahnyer aper jer, duit rm50, piala n cenderamata. Biler aku ingat balik aksi aku kat atas pentas time tu, aku gelak besar, lawak dowh.

Banyak kenangan zaman kecik yang aku sentiasa ingat. Tp si JD nie ingat lg banyak dari aku. Kita org nie best frens giler2 arr... Sentiasa together along with Shanida, Syarina, Munirah, Azzim, Azwa. Tu time kat skolah rendah. Kat skolah menengah, laen pulak kawan-kawan kitaorg sebab dah campur dengan budak dari kampung-kampung lain. Aku dgn JD nie pernah masuk kebudayaan time kecik. Aku slalu x nak kalah kat dier. Dier nie serba boleh. Menari, menyanyi, main bola, berpantun, bersajak... just name it. Aku lak, sah-sah la part main bola tu aku x reti. Aku la a real KAKI BANGKU. Tp xper, at least aku boleh la sepak-sepak bola. Just that sekarang nie aku tak boleh dah nak join futsal sumer sebab lutut aku injured lepas main futsal tima kat maktab perguruan dulu. 

Aku rasa, kalo nak cerita, x habis. banyak sangat cerita zaman kecik aku. Aku cerita sikit la. Time kecik, aku rasa time darjah 5, aku tak siap kerja MAth, aku x suka, so aku x reti nak wat camana. Antara kerja yang aku tak siap is yang kene ukur padang bola tampar dengan measurement mcm jengkal, kaki, depa, hasta suma tu. Guess what, takut punya pasal, sebab cikgu aku nie garang tp baik, Cikgu Jamilah namanya, aku pegi jugak ukur tengah-tengah hujan lebat. Cikgu aku sume tak ambik tahu pun sebab sume org fikir aku kene hukum. Aku habiskan jugak ukuran aku. Dari jengka, pastu kaki, then hasta, lastly depa. Yang aku paling tak boleh blah is bila aku kene wat kiraan depa tu. Aku baring atas padang tu. GIGIH giler aku time tu sebab takut punye pasal.

Banyak lagi cerita aku time kecik. Suka, Duka, Sengsara, Gembira, semua ada. Ingat lagi, satu hati tu, aku, 2 orang abang aku, and kawan-kawan dier pergi la memancing kat sungai. Aku time tu memancing udang-udang sungai yang kecik jer. Tu pun bukannyer memancing, bayangkan, ikan bilis ikat kat benang n selam kat air. So bile aku nampak ada udang datang, aku tangguk. Tu pun bahagia giler bagi aku. Nak dijadikan cerita, abg aku tgh syok memancing. Tiba-tiba kail/joran dier terkena, ada ikan makan umpan. Ikan sungai kalo dah dapat, kuat melawan. Abang aku sentak la kuat-kuat sampai terbang ikan tu kearah kitaorg. Aku tengah CANTIK bagi belakang time tu. Tahu-tahu, ikan BEDUKANG tercacak kat belakang aku. Aku tak sedar pun, not until abang aku tarik keluar sengat ikan tu dari belakang aku. Imagine, the sengat tengah tercacak kat belakang aku dengan ikan tu skali: aku rasa antara experience hampir mati aku kot. 

...nie la rupa ikan BEDUKANG...

Tu antara experience paling ngeri aku. Tapi ada banyak lagi actually. Tapi tu aku simpan la for next entry.

Nie la antara experience ngeri aku yang lain:-

-hampir mati lemas

-mata kene lastik

-kawan cucuk pensil kat kepala

-and banyak lagi...

baca entry yang akan datang ok... da...


Thursday, October 29, 2009

Hi, I'm Sapri...yea, the same old Sapri...only better.

I'm going to be a new

SAPRI 

from today onwards,

INSYALLAH.

I would be a person

who

RESPECTS 

other people:

I'm lacking of that right now.

I wont be

JUDGMENTAL.

I would try to be

GOOD. 

I promise I'll be a

BRAND

NEW

SAPRI.

Before and After

There was something seriously wrong with me!!!

After several hours...

I'm feeling much better.

Thank You Allah

Thank You Allah

Thank You Allah

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

At Last!!! An Entry For A Diva; Misha Omar

Misha Omar @ Samihah Omar, someone who needs no further introduction. Someone i adore so much ever since the first day i heard her 'nightingale'ly -beautiful voice. She has impress many with her soulful singing and entertaining acting on the stage. Despite her busy life as a mother, she still ROCKS whenever she performs. After 6 years of dreaming to meet the "bunga-bunga cinta" singer, at last i had the opportunity right in front of my eyes. She was one of the artists who perform at a futsal(what's the english word for it anyway?) match in UKM organized by KOSMO on the 11th of October 2009. I was so excited. The six-year of waiting was to it's end.

So, there i was, waiting for Misha Omar to arrive. I was in the building anyway since i was having a dance practice there. I couldn't concentrate to my practice but my choreographer and my team mates knew that i was anxious to meet my idol. I saw Tomok backstage. Where's Misha Omar? After few minutes of waiting, i asked a woman. I kind of knew that she was the officer in-charged of artists for the event. She told me that Misha Omar was on her way and caught in traffic jam. So i bet she would be a little late. So i went back to continue my practice; still not focusing. 

After 10 munites, i went to check again with Amirul. There she was, talking to the people there. She was adorable. She was lovely. She was MISHA OMAR!!! God, i adore her so much. I didn't do much. I was just standing there. I was so nervous. I was unable to move nor speak. She was right in front of my eyes. It was Amirul who talked to Misha, saying that i would die to have a photo taken with her.

She was smiling at me!!! God, I'm being too obsessed! So i took few pictures with her before she was called to perform. I ran to DECTAR to watch her perform. She was STUNNING!!! She sang 4 songs. Aidilfitri, Pupus, a medley of Pulangkan and Bunga-Bunga Cinta. Well, she didn't actualy fullly able to sing as the fans were gathering around her, taking picture. She was so adorable when she stopped singing and pose for her fans. 

After finishing her last song, she was asked by the organizer to give away some goodies. So she thrown a question to the audience. "Where am I (Misha Omar) from?"

I ran to the stage! I'm a fan, of course i know. It would be a piece of cake for me. So i answered, "Kelantan!!!"

She challenge me for another question as she wished to know whether i'm truly a fan. So she asked these questions:

How many album do I have? 

after few minutes pause, i answered 3

What is the name of my son?

Adam (dont quite remember the full name but i guess that's enough)

She was impressed and further challenged me. She asked me to imitate her @ act as if i'm her. That would be the easiest task. I have been studying her performance videos for the past 6 years! So i grab the Mic from her and started to imitate her. I was forgotten that the hall was full with people. but i don't bother! The most important thing is that i have finally met my idol.

After giving away few more goodies, she went to the backstage. I ran to the back to thank her for the great day. Instead of merely thanking her, i had a 10-15 minutes chat with her. She told me that she felt so honored to have a fan like me. we had a little chat about her career, her life, my life, and her activities. We even talked about "Sehati Sejiwa", a TV program she hosts. And I even managed to ask her about her project in producing video clip for her few latest songs. I was so excited to know that the video was in it's final editing. Can't wait to have them.

She had made that day a wonderful one. My 6-year dream of meeting her has finally came true. To Misha Omar, I wish you all the best in life. May Allah protect you always. 





p/s -->wish to meet you again soon.

Dalam hati ada apa???


The Story Begins...





The smile, the joy, the tear, the tease, the sarcastic words...blur, blur, blur... i think i'm in love!

Have you ever like someone... rather, adore that person and you're confused to whether that feelings ca be called LOVE or LIKE. Two words which brings a totally different meanings. LIKE, in Bm it would be SUKA. When we LIKE something, we usually wish to have it but the excitement doesn't last long. LOVE, or in BM, CINTA, has a different meaning to it. Well, one thing for sure, it involves HEART. Sometimes the term LOVE has been overrated. But for me, LOVE in something which requires sacrifices. Not only from one party, but rather from both parties. Is it worth it to put your heart and soul in loving someone who doesn't love you back? I bet most have experience that dilemma, i assume. Well, I've been into that dilemma ever since I learn to LOVE. 

At times, I'm just confused to whether I LOVE or I LIKE that person. But what matter most is that it would be unbearable to see that person get hurt. I've told some of my friends that I'm afraid to expressing my LOVE. reason... guess what, I'm not comfortable with myself. I think I am not suitable to be with anybody. and sometimes I think that I'm not ready. But until when should i be left alone?

So, what is this feelings? LOVE or LIKE?

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Aku pilih begini!

aku pilih begini
mendambar
menyinta
menyukai
menginginkan

namun, kenapa aku rasa
tersisih
mengharap
terluka
diperbodohkan
sakit

apakah harus aku
teruskan
usahakan
biarkan
atau lepaskan

kerana hanya aku rasa
hanya aku tahu
hanya aku fahami
hanya aku alami

biar esok lakarkan
biar esok lukiskan
biar esok tentukan

jalan...jalan... dan terus berjalan....
hingga jumpa
hingga rasa
hingga satu destinasi
yang belum aku tentukan
yang masih belum pasti

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

a well written comment on Malaysia-Indonesia issue

Lately, there has been a rumor saying that The Indonesians are going to attack Malaysian due to some misunderstanding and dissatisfaction of the Indonesians towards Malaysia. I understand that it's a national crisis and i'm not trying to provoke any party but i think it's necessary to reveal this letter written by an Indonesian students who is studying in Malaysian University. Original post was taken from http://abelmanu.wordpress.com/2009/09/. this is what she wrote:

Tidak sedikit masyarakat Indonesia (saya termasuk salah satunya) yang terbakar emosinya oleh ulah Malaysia. Terutama ketika munculnya kembali isu pengklaiman Malaysia terhadap beberapa budaya asli Indonesia. Kali ini tidak hanya batik yang diklaim, bahkan tari reog ponorogo, tari pendet, dan wayang pun ikut diklaim.

tari pendetwayang-kulit

Kebetulan saya mempunyai seorang teman dari SMA yang sekarang sedang menuntut ilmu di negri serumpun kita Malaysia. Terkadang lontaran pertanyaan penuh emosi mengenai Malaysia saya ajukan padanya. Sampai pada akhirnya (mungkin juga karena banyak orang yang bertanya pertanyaan-pertanyaan serupa) ia mengirimkan sebuah message kepada para kerabatnya, termasuk saya, yang berisi pendapatnya mengenai masalah pengklaiman ini. Berikut sebuah penyampaian yang manis darinya… :

Akhir2 ini.. semakin banyak ajaa orang yang bertanya tentang malaysia, gimana perkembangan di Malaysia? gimana reaksi Malaysia? dan masih banyak lagi… akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk menyebarkan berita ini.. analisis (sok tau) dr seorang anak kecil yang mencoba melihat kasus dari dua sisi… heehehe

Pertama saya mau menjelaskan bahwa secara individu pandangan saya mengenai Malaysia. Jujur saya sangat kagum dengan Malaysia. Rakyatnya cukup patuh pada pemerintahan dan rakyatnya sangat mencintain negara termasuk budayanyaa… terlihat dari zaman orang tua saya menempuh jenjang pendidikan di sini, hingga anak sulungnya ini mengikuti jejak mereka, Malaysia tetap tidak berubah, masyarakat tetap mengikuti kultur yang telah mereka punya. Budaya barat dan budaya Asia populer yang lainnya hanya mampu menggoyah sedikit kebudayaan mereka. Untuk kuliah atau bekerja rata2 masyarakat masih menggunakan baju tradisional mereka yaitu baju kurung. Walaupun dalam sudut pandang kita baju itu terlihat kurang ok, tapi saya salut saat mereka tetap mempertahankan, dan mencintainya. hal kecil tersebut memacu saya untuk memakai batik saat kuliyah :)
Walaupun budaya tidak terlalu berubah tetapi secara pembangunan jelas mereka berubah total. kotanya sangat tertata dan rapih… mereka sangat fokus dan optimis tentang perkembangan bangsa… saat ini posisi mereka sudah berada di posisi lepas landas… mulai mengangkasa. perekonomian Malaysia terlihat cukup stabil, dan kemakmuran rakyat cukup merata diberbagai bagian di Malaysia. Dan hal ini dapat terjadi karena, pemerintah Malaysia tidak mengizinkan rakyatnya turut mengambil andil dalam seluruh permasalahan negara. Bukannya mereka menutup-nutupi masalah dari rakyat atau tidak open sm rakyatnyaa. Tetapi karena mereka tahu apa reaksi rakyat jika seluruh permasalahan dibuka secara gambling, yang ada hanya akan menimbulkan reaksi anarkis yang berlebihan, dan pemerintah harus mengeluarkan tenaga untuk mengurusi 3 etnis yang berbeda dengan budaya masing2 yang berbeda, hal tersebut hanya akan memperkeruh suasana bukannya memperbaiki. Saat ini banyak masyarakat Malaysia yang tidak mengerti apa2 tentang masalah Malaysia dan Indonesia. Dan beberapa dari mereka terlihat sangat kaget atas tindakan yang dilakukan oleh masyarakat Indonesia kepada mereka.

Di sisi lain…. saya melihat masyarakat Indonesia sebagai masyarakat yang sangat ramah, dan mempunyai jiwa kekeluargaan yang sangat tinggi walaupun terbagi-bagi menjadi kurang lebih 300 suku. Contohnya, seperti saat ini kami pelajar Indonesia yang cukup jauh dari kampung halaman sering sekali mengadakan kegiatan sehingga kita bisa berkumpul bersama dan saling bertukar pikiran. Tetapi sifat kekeluargaan yang berlebihan ini dapat menimbulkan etnosentrisme di kalangan masyarakat sehingga dengan mudah membanding-bandingkan negara kita dengan negara lain, selain itu jika ada isu negatif atau berita yang kurang mengenakkan tentang negara kita masyarakat dengan mudah terpancing emosinya. Selain itu, kita sangat mudah terpancing isu. Itu merupakan titik kelemahan yang cukup fatal. Indonesia merupakan negara kepulauan yang terdiri dari kurang lebih 17.508 pulau yang membentang dari sabang sampai merauke. Banyak budaya dari masing-masing pulau, bebebrapa tradisi atau budaya tidak hanya negara kita saja yang memilikinya. Contohnya tarian Zapin, Zapin disadur dari budaya Arab dan dijadikan tarian melayu, bukan hanya tarian Indonesia tetapi merupakan tarian Malaysia juga.


Mulai masuk ke dalam topik pembicaran kita. Kasus pencurian Budaya Indonesia oleh Malaysia… Kalau menurut pandang saya… (correct me if im wrong) Malaysia merupakan negara pencinta budaya dan tradisi, semuanya diabadikan, mengejar manuskrip tentang asal usul bangsa Melayu dan negara mereka hingga ke Riaupun mereka lakukan, walaupun mereka harus membayar untuk itu semua, mereka tidak merasa keberatan. Nah, Indonesia merupakan negara berjuta budaya dan tradisi, tetapi tidak dijaga! Penduduknya tidak sadar, betapa berharganya semua itu, hingga akhirnya dicuri, baru deh panik kayak orang kebakaran jenggot… Start dari kasus perebutan pulau, lalu klaim terhadap untuk angklung, dan klaim untuk batik, berlanjut terus hingga yang terparah adalah pengakuan tari pendet. Coba kita pikirkan dengan kepala dingin, dan telusuri lagi…
Sedikit belok dari topik, saya ada sedikit cerita, universitas tempat saya belajar saat ini merupakan universitas internasional di Malaysia, dan Alhamdulillah tahun ini menjadi universitas terbaik di Malaysia. Karena merupakan universitas terbaik, tentunya banyak pejabat penting di Malaysia singgah dan berbicara. Tak jarang mahasiswa Indonesia ikut, bertanya, dan turut mengkritik… semua dijawab oleh pihak Malaysia dengan cukup tenang, dan memuaskan. Lalu salah satu program di kampus namanya Ummatic Week. Dalam ummatic week ini, kita diberikan waktu kurang lebih 1minggu untuk mengenalkan negara kita ke pada seluruh penduduk kampus. ☺ kami diizinkan untuk membuat stand dan menampilkan hal-hal yang berhubungan dengan negara kita. Dalam acara ini kami murid-murid Indonesia berusaha melakukan yang terbaik sehingga Indonesia menjadi salah satu negara terfavorit, dan diminati oleh para murid dan dosen… cukup melelahkan juga menjawab pertanyaan setiap orang, memberikan orang video2 tentang negara kita, dan kita juga menarikan salah satu tarian dari pulau dewata yaitu kecak… walaupun sempat disinggung karena itu tarian orang hindu, sedangkan kampus kami kampus Islam, tetap semua orang menikmatinya ☺ nah, saat kami mempersiapkan stand kami kaget, ternyata yang punya angklung tidak hanya kita ataupun Malaysia, tetapi Thailand, dan beberapa negara asia tenggara juga punya. Awalnya kita yang anak baru cuma bisa bengong dan sedikit marah, lalu salah satu senior berkata, itu namanya budaya nusantara. Terbukti bahwa itu bukan digunakan oleh orang Indonesia saja… tetapi negara lain juga turut menggunakannya.


Dari pengalaman tersebut saya belajar, budaya itu terlalu banyak, terlalu luas, dan rasanya tidak pantas untuk dipatenkan. Dalam hal ini saya kecewa dengan Malaysia, mengapa mereka harus mematenkan budaya-budaya nusantara, dan banyak budaya dari Indonesia. Harusnya, budaya itu bisa dengan bebas disebarkan tanpa harus dipatenkan. Sejarahnya harus kuat juga sii.. selain itu saya juga baru tahu, pengembang budaya di Indonesia di Malaysia ternyata banyak orang asli Indonesia loo… Saya bingung, kok mereka menyebarkan budaya kita di negara orang? Well, balik lagi ke negara kita, ternyata masih kurang apresiasi kita terhadap budaya kita, sehingga banyak seniman yang akhirnya melarikan diri dan mengembangkan di luar negeri. Malaysia yang memang suka hal2 tersebut menerima dengan lapang…
Coba ya, sebelum Malaysia mengklaim bahwa batik merupakan budaya mereka berapa banyak orang yang mau menggunakan batik? Cowo2 pakai batik ke acara kawinan aja suka diketawain, apa lagi kalo kita pake kebaya ke kuliah? Padahal jenis kebaya juga banyak-kan tapi kita ga ada yang mau membudidayakan hal tersebut. Semenjak saya kuliah di sini, hampir seluruh anak2 Indonesia, menggunakan batik untuk kuliah, coba kalau di Indonesia, kita pakai batik kuliah paling diketawain, di sini, mereka sangat menerima, dan kita selalu dipuji, sampai dosen memanggil salah satu teman kami ke depan kelas dan berkata, pakaian ini sesuai dengan dresscode islam, dan tetap menghargai budaya negara asli ☺ Awalnya saya termasuk orang yang tidak mau menggunakan batik, malu pakai batik dan semacamanya… tapi, begitu saya sampai di sini, saya baru sadar, betapa berharganya hal tersebut, karena secara tidak langsung hal tersebut merupakan jati diri kita. Tetapi kita tidak ada yang mau mengakuinya, kita malah condong ke arah barat, tetapi kita tidak mengizinkan saat orang lain ada yang lebih bisa menghargainya dengan lebih baik merebut. Itu artinya kita egois. Bener gaa?? (kok jadi emosi?? Hehe.. maaf yaa..) wajar kita marah saat jati diri kita direbut… tetapi, apakah kita pantas marah, padahal kita juga tidak mengenal dengan baik? Tapi, memang banyak rakyat Malaysia yang tidak tahu apa2, karena mereka lebih focus dengan masalah dalam negeri yang sedang panas akhir2 ini, yaitu masalah perbedaan etnis… karena akhir2 ini India dan china merasa diserang atau di nomer duakan oleh pemerintahnyaa, jadi perdana menteri yang baru sedang mengkampanyekan Malaysia Satu… jadi, saat kawan semua sibuk mempermasalahkan hal ini, di sini tidak ada yang mengurusi masalah ini sama sekali.. begitu…
Solusi yang ada dalam benak saya adalah kita minta tolong, tuntut klo perlu, ke UNESCO… untuk menyatakan bahwa budaya itu tidak boleh di hak patenkan! Sehingga semua orang bebas belajar dan menggunakan… lalu perjelas setiap sejarah budaya kita, tanpa kita perlu marah2 atau bersikap anarkis dunia juga dapat melihat siapa yang jujur siapa yang tidak. Karena kalau kita bersikap menggunakan kekerasan, kasihan pelajar yang berada di Malaysia… heheehe… jujur… kita diserang sama teman2 dari tanah air, lalu kita juga diserang oleh orang2 Malaysia yang bertanya kenapa negara kita begitu anarkis sampai membakar negara mereka (ini penghinaan besar buat negara mereka). Kita menjelaskan semuanya dengan baik, sebaik yang kita bisa. Tetapi kita juga butuh dukungan, kalau kita ditekan terus, lama2 kesal juga… hehe.. ☺ semoga ini bisa menjawab pertanyaan kawan2 di tanah air…

-Hanna Luthfina Rizanoel-

Setelah membaca tulisan tersebut, langsung terlintas dalam pikiran saya. Apakah mungkin semua ini merupakan ulah beberapa oknum yang memang sengaja memprovokasi Indonesia-Malaysia? Jika memang iya, itu berarti kita dituntut untuk lebih dewasa dalam menghadapi segala godaan. Jangan cepat terpikir seakan-akan Malaysia mencari masalah dengan kita. Berpikir sebelum bertindak, mungkin adalah sebuah pesan yang tepat. Jangan hanya karena segelintir orang dapat merusak hubungan dua negara yang sesungguhnya serumpun. Semoga masalah ini dapat segera diselesaikan antara kedua negara. Mari kita jaga perdamaian bersama.

Special thanks to Hanna, semoga akan lebih banyak lagi hati masyarakat Indonesia yang terbuka dengan surat darimu ya han..

i believe she has some good points discussed which reflect her education. I myself is very impress with her arguements which i think do not pro of any party. i hope that the letter would make people think before attempting anything.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Aidilfitri 2009


Excited, Sad, Anxious, Thrill, Longing

Words can merely describe my feelings...
Celebrating Eid Fitri without family...
That, i guess, explains how i feel.
HAPPY EID FITRI TO EVERYONE anyway...
may you have a blessed Eid Fitri.

I'm celebrating it in MELAKA this time around.
Quite SAD but rather eager.
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN


Sunday, August 23, 2009

i miss them so much

i'm basically living by myself. without my uncle, i would be dead by now. I can't imagine my life without him. He's my father, my mother, and he's everything to me. Even before my parents death, he has been raising me like his own child. I miss my MAK and my BAPAK. I miss them so much. Now, i only have my uncle. What about my brothers??? Don't want to say a word. If only my parents are still here, life wont be as sucks. MAK, PAK, and SU, Salam Ramadhan. Mintak ampun mun ada nyakit hati. SU, mintak maaf sbb sik balit raya tahun tok. Malas nak bertemu dgn sidak nok nyakit hati aku. Harp ktk faham.

Nothing's gonna change my LOVE for YOU (MAK, APAK, n USU)

If I had to live my life without you near me
the days would all be empty
the nights would seem so long
with you I see forever oh so clearly
I tried to be in love before
but it never felt this strong

our dreams are young and we both know
they'll take us where we want to go
hold me now
touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by know how much I love you
the world may change my whole life too
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us
like the guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't need to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
so come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
hold me now touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by know how much I love you
the world may change my whole life too
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Sarajevo..first ever oversea trip

I was luckily chosen to represent UKM, or Malaysia to be specific in the Bascarsija Nights Festival held in Sarajevo, Bosnia Herzegovina. It was a wonderful experience that i wont forget for the rest of my life. Being in Sarajevo, the capital city of Bosnia, made me literally cry. There are a lot of building which is still damaged due to the war which started in 1992 until 1995. Marks from the shooting are still apparent and it reflects just how terrifying the war was. No no no... i wont be lecturing on the war. Instead, I want to share with all the joy I had in Sarajevo. Well, if you don't include the issue on finance, I think everything would be perfect. The place, a 4-season-country that i've always wanted to go to and the view, very beautiful landscape and buildings. However, when you take into consideration the issue of finance, life would be miserable. Their 1 KM is equal to RM2.50 in which one of the things that cost 1KM was a scope of ice cream. So a scope of an ice-cream is therefore cost RM2.50. What do you think??? Crazy, isn't it. But then again, I wasn't going to shop. I had a mission. AADYAMAATRA has been chosen to represent MALAYSIA to perform cultural dance for the Bascarsija Nights there. We were very honored to be selected among many other excellent dance group in Malaysia. It was a big responsibility and we were frightened that we would not perform as what is expected by the organizer as well as the Malaysian Embassy. We were so glad when the organizer and the Malaysian Embassy praised us for the job well done. I was on cloud 9 upon hearing that from the Malaysian Ambassador himself. The sweetest memories would be the gathering we had with The Ambassador and wife, 2nd person of the Embassy, wife and 2 lovely daughters, 3rd person of the embassy and wife and the members of the embassy. We had so much fun.














Thursday, July 16, 2009

it ends here

It has been almost 2 months for Ashairi, Kak Nadia, Puspa, Maryani, Aisyah and I being a part of Jalil. I personally has so many sweet memories in SMK Abdul Jalil, and i'm very sure the rest feel the same way too. Having assigned to do my practical in SMK Abdul Jalil, the first thought that came to my mind was the attitude of the students. First few days, nobody greeted us. The students seemed so rude. Later, upon knowing the 6 of us, they started to greet us.

Few weeks later, Astro showed a programme where Ashairi and I was in the programme. The teachers as well as the students saw it and when we were back in Abdul Jalil, all the teachers asked whether or not the 2 guests in the show were us. They were shocked to see me with a very long hair. I was scared if the management would take some disiplinary action. But they didn't.

And the students...they were so excited when they know that it was us in the show. Everywhere Ash and I go to, the students would shout "Jangan Lupa Lirik...Yea yea..." of they would sing songs from the programme. Instead of feeling angry with their attitude, i use it as an X factor to get their attention. Now, everytime i enter a class for relief, they would ask me to sing, or play a game mimicking the gameshow.

Today, while typing this entry, I'm felingvery sad. So many things happened in such a short time. I've always wanted to be a teacher even after knowing the ugly truth of the responsibility that i have to bare with. It doesn't matter. As long as you love something, no matter how irrelavent, or uninteresting it may be, you will find joy in it.

To SMK Abdul Jalil's management. Thanks for giving my friends and I a glimpse of what it is like to be a teacher.

To all the teachers, thanks for all the lovely advice and delicious food. Thanks for being so supporting whenever we needed help.

To all the students, you are all very talented and you have different ability. Find the potential and do the best out of it.

To the English panels, thanks for all the support and advice. I wish you alll the very best to make the standard of English in SMK Abdul Jalil better.

To 1Ikhlas, I'm very sorry for being very strict with all of you. I believe that you're capable of learning English. You just need to work harder. I pray to God that you would all be successful. It was fun teaching all of you.

To 2Ceria, it is a plasure to teach you. You are all vary in your talent as well as your potential. Be 1... Your class is missing something which is called respect. RESPECT yourself and your friends. That is the only thing that is stopping you from having good co-operation among your class member. Is was fun teaching you guys. I'm very sorry if ever i hurt you all. I wish you all the best for exams to come and for your future.

I'm not leaving, I'm just away...Thanks ('',)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

making a STATEMENT

to all dear readers, do not be dishearted with my previous entry. I'm sorry to have complaining so much about SMK Abdul Jalil but facts remain as facts. After almost 2 months, i learn a lot from the school. i'm enjoying myself now. actually, the entry was written when i was not in a good mood. but now, i'm actually learning a lot of precious things from the school. I'm going to have a difficult time leaving this school.
to all the teachers of SMK Abdul Jalil, i'm very sorry if ever i did anything wrong. i hope my visit to the school brings sweet memories rather than a bad ones.
to the English panels, thanks for the support and love. I learnt a lot from all of you.
to all the students, I wish you all luck for you life. To 2Ceria and 1Ikhlas, I'm going to miss all of you. do keep in touch yea. keep on learning English. You may not see the rationale now but someday you will know why i force all of you to use English.
To SMK ABDUL JALIL...thanks for the memories.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

SMK Abdul Jalil

some may know while others may not even have a single idea what i mean by SMK Abdul Jalil. Well, like my classmates, i'm doing my practicum/practical. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean that the whole class is doing their practical in SMK Abdul Jalil, only Ashairi and I are doing our practical there. Having their practical together with Ashairi and I are 2 TESL PKPG Nadia and Puspa and 2 pengajian Al-Quran students; Aisyah and Mariani, if I'm not mistaken, hehehe.

Basically, there's nothing much to share abotu the school except for the fact that they have class from the alphabet A until P... and each of the class have approximately 38 students. Can you imagine, a class with 38 people...CROWDED!!!

From the first day i entered the school, the teachers reminded me that the school's English achievement is very low and the reminder echo still. Does it make me freak out??? of course it does!!! I'm afterall going for a practicum as an English teacher, not a BM one...

The thing that i hate the most is that the Penyelia Petang gave Ash, the two TESL PKPG and me 2 classes each and both of the class are of equally weak academic backgroud, what more their English... Even the English teachers are very surprised when they know that we given weak classes when we're suppose to be given at least 1 godd class. I wanted to complain but after giving it a thought, i decided to stick with whichever class given to me. I'm officially taking 1Ikhlas and 2Jujur.So, it's A B C D E F G H
1I 2J K L M N O P...

I have not teach any of the class but i've been entering the class, observing the English teacher teach. I'm in seriuos trouble!!! Imagine this, 75% of the lesson is conducted in bahasa because students hardly understand any English. Making things worse, the students do not utter a single English word. They answer questions fully in Bahasa... There you go, try putting yourself in my shoes now. How can you teach English eithregards to that condition. What would happen if the students speak bahasa when my lecturer comes to observe me later?

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Selamat Hari Ibu

Ya Allah, please tell her that I miss her so much. Tell her that I think of her at every single breath that i take. Tell her I remember her forever. Mak, Selamat Hari Ibu... i have never had the opportunity to wish you before. And i would never be able to wish you anymore. My eyes wont let me cry anymore. I miss you so much. I love you so much. Mak, Slamat Hari Ibu. Semoga Mak sentiasa dilindungi Allah S.W.T. Ya Allah, sampaikan salam rindu insan bernama anak ini. Rindu hamba buat Bonda yg dirindu. Sampaikan salam kasih yg aku dambarkan bagaikan selamanya. MAK, kamek RINDU alu ngan KITAK... datang la, lam mimpi pun sikpa...

Friday, May 8, 2009

Have you ever...

Have you ever try to put yourself into my shoes. Trying my very best to please the whole world; putting my own importance aside, considering their feelings before myself. I am very tired. Tired of making people smile, laugh... when they do not even know that I'm hurting myself, struggling to suppress the burden I feel inside. Shit...i'm nagging...LOL

Ya Allah, another 'dugaan' for me... i deleted the 360 word essay i typed just now... argh.... bencik li jak... tp sikpa la... DUGAAN... let uus look at the bright side. Maybe He just want me to spend some more time typing this entry and further looking into things and trying to look into the bright side of life. Unfortunately, though ii try hard to seek for the so call silver lining, my mentality does not allow me to do too much of thinking over the conflicts i'm having.

Why???(why is the because...hahaha... sajer jer merapu...) Why can't I see it like other people do??? give me comments... see if you can help me with what i'm having now...

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

whatever you say...



Who am i? If i have a quiz, asking me details about my friends, would i successfully pass the test. NOPE... I don't even know my bestfriends' birthday. That's me... The one who tends to leave everything as the way it should be. I do not realize small things which people may take into consideration in their life. I know, i know, those small2 things are the ones which would make a great deal of difference in one's life. But, i don't know. Maybe I'm just being ignorance or maybe I have am the person who only looks at the bigger picture.

Things do not seem to go my way this few weeks. Too many incidences that make my life miserable, thinking about all those over and over again. Just to share with the rest of the world, I've not been talking to few people in which I used to be very close with. How do feel??? Let's make it this way... for the first few weeks, I feel tremendously sad. Felt like something that i hold on tight to is slipping from my hands, something so precious, so valuable. Well, i may be feeling the same way right now, but it doesn't hurt as much but it hurts me even worse.

Hakim, Ash and those who are close to me, would now smile and say..." not again..."hahaha... Am I looking into things too seriously? Tell me, how should i treat those who judge me, and punish me for being myself and for mistakes I dont even know. How whould i go about this unnecessary conflicts?

Sunday, April 26, 2009

gone

I have not been blogging enough 'hot' issues so far. I have, actually, a lot of hot issues happening around me right now involving family, friends and those who i despise. It's has been tough, trying to be professional and at the same time, hiding the true feeling of hatred, hurt, burden and etc... I'm very sure the people who i am having problem with do not read my blog by if they do, i wish them to know that they have been successfully making my life miserable. Thank you so much.

owh, i wish to share with all of you how i feel last few days. After the 4 -days exams, I became EXTREMELY LAZY. Usually i sleep at 3-4 a.m. and wake up after 10-11 hours of so call 'beauty' sleep. Isn't that what we call LAZINESS...hahaha... owh, to make things worse, i have not been exercising. Instead, i stuffed myself with Mc D's meals for more than 3 time this week alone. OMG, i don't know what's wrong with me. I'm gaining weight faster than gaining knowledge, ish ish ish, apa nak jd la...

All of this is due to the problems i had i guess. Otherwise, i wont be stuffing 2 pieces of spicy Chicken, an apple Pie, Fries and Chicken Porridge every time I 'singgah' Mc D. thanks to them also, my jeans does not fit me well, and my thongs are very tight.

I have to take action fast before i have to buy new jeans. What I'm practising now is to ignore those who bring problems in my life. the hell with those losers!!! You are not the only people that i have okay... i have a lot more friends who can offer me shoulder to cry on. since I'm no one in your life, so i would like you to know that YOU ARE NO ONE IN MY LIFE!!! HA HA HA...

Friday, April 24, 2009

another issue


i've been busy hibernating... it's so hot in MALAYSIA...LOL

It's been long... nope, it's not because of my so call 'hectic' life but rather i've lost interest in sharing my thoughts with people. It has been a very tough semester for me juggling between my studies and extra activities; expanding my friends circle, dancing, and wasting my time. As many of you might know, i've been to Sarawak for two times. And for the second time last 2 weeks, i had stupidly lost my Identification Card; IC. I'm very certain that i miss-placed the IC somewhere but it is yet to be found. i had so much trouble with the LCCT management as they wont let me board to Kuching due to immigrations issue. The person who i was dealing with was so rude and he was surprisingly a MALAY!!! Later, he asked his Chinese friend to settle my problem. At that moment, Hakim was already half way to Kuching. I felt like crying. The Chineseman was so polite. He phone the Sarawak Immigration, asking them regarding my issue. Alhamdulillah, I was given a boarding ticket for the next flight to Kuching. I was joyfully happy at that time that i dont know how thankful i was to that man.

So, there i was, waiting for the next flight to Kuching with a lot of people, all seem so familiar...SARAWAKIANS...

Sarawak, a place truly like no other... i planned a lot of activities but i managed to accomplish only few, but I'm satisfied. i had a great time with my fellow IPBLian friends, juniors and most importantly, my family.

the Divas


my lovely friends and juniors...



thanks to Ash, Julian and Lina for providing transportation.


sad that i had to leave Sarawak...huhuhu


I had problem during my flight to KL after few days vacation in Sarawak. i didn't manage to pass the immigration check as i did not have my IC. All that i have at that time was a polce report. i was suppose to make a new IC during my few days 'vacation' but i dont seem to have the time to do it. At last, after a slow talk between Hakim and the Immigration authority, they let me pass. Thanks Hakim.

the person I MISS SO MUCH right now...

Now, here I am, back in my room, trying to absorb information from my notes for the finals. I survive so far, after 4-days of exams, and hoping that the last three papers wont be too burdening. To all my friends, GOOD LUCK WITH FOR REST OF THE EXAM. And for TESL 3, IPBL-UKM, we have an even bigger task ahead...PRACTICUM!!! May Allah makes things easy for us.

hei, baca this, jangan main2...

Monday, April 6, 2009

BUSY!!!



life have been so busy lately... no more 'lepaking' for the past 2-3 weeks...owh, i went back to Swak to attend or i can say, to manage my friends wedding... i was ETREMELY busy and didn't able to do any assignment. molah berat beg jak mbak buku byk2!!! ceh...

anyway, to SHANIDA FAZIEMA DAUD and KAMARUZZAMAN HJ AHMAD DEWAN, semoga Allah merestui perjalanan perkahwinan kalian...

by the way, i am in STARBUCKS Kuching International Airport (KIA) right now, waiting for my departure at 9. Opss...there's a call for me... got to go... bye...

Saturday, March 7, 2009

wake up call

hahaha...lawak eh... i was at Hakim's room, dreaming of lovely stuff when suddenly i heard a song which sounded very familiar; it was my phone ringing... on the screen written "nana"... so i thought i was still in my dream realm... tried to answer her call, but i did't make it on time to press the 'answer' key. so i tried to call...nope, couldn't be reached. the phone rang again and this time, i was prepared. so i answered:

me: hello... [hello]
nana: hello~ Sapri... [ hello~ Sapri... ]
me: oi, pahal...(nada mamai) [yes~ what's up? (sounded very sleepy)]
nana: sine ktk? [where are you?]
me: di uo, bilit Hakim. Pahal nana? [in Hakim's room in UO. What's the matter?]
nana: Sapri, boleh sik tlg... (pls3x...i heard Hai's voice while nana is talking) [Sapri, could you do me a favor? (i can hear Hai's voice "pls3x")
me: tlg apa? [sure2...How can i help?]
nana: tlg...bla bla bla.... [be our bla bla bla....]

So, why did she call? well, she requested me to help them instructing an aerobic session. I was actually still very much sleeping at that time but after being told that they would want me to become an instructer, i rose from bed and quickly get ready as Zek's and a friend were on their way to fetch me...(that girl, can really drive... ask Zek... amazing...)

So i helped.... and I am very happy to help them... they live happily ever after...hehehe

Monday, March 2, 2009

WTF

I'm in Literature Tutorial class right now. I love literature but irresponsible people made me hate it. Maybe it is not so much of hating literature but rather i hate the people responsible to make learning fun. Unfortunately, leaning right now is not fun at all!!! He seems to be very emotional right now after he made a call. I SERIOUSLY HATE THIS CLASS RIGHT NOW!!!

Monday, February 23, 2009

bla bla bla

Last sunday, few of my classmates and I joined the PAMESRA's 1-day-trip to PD. There were a lot of activities planned for that day and everyone took place; giving full co-operation. It was so damn hot that day and the result...My skin is sunburnt!!! huhuhu...

ok guys, enjoy the pics...