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Monday, November 9, 2009

Not again...

It has never been easy living without my parents. I miss them so much right now. I'm not trying to tell you just how fragile I am but i would want you all to appreciate your beloved ones; your mom, your dad, your uncle, your aunt, your grandmother and grandfather, your brothers and your sisters. Life would not be the same after losing them. Trust me, I've had a great lost myself. 

I miss my mom, my mak. She was one of the person who would always be there for me. When i was in pain, i would run to her. She was in great pain when she was on her death bed. I was so hopeless. I wasn't able to do anything to help her. She had suffered so much to bear her 7 children and having them all well taken care off. It's very true when people say that a mother would be able to take care her children but her children would be able to do the same. My mom was a great mom. Before she left, she taught me how to survive on my own. She taught me how to cook, clean up, wash my clothes and most importantly she thought me so much about life. She taught me to be grateful of what i have. Learn how to give without hoping anything in return. She taught me to be who i am right now. Mak, sorry if ever i hurt your feelings. Al-Fatihah buat arwah mak; Ambah bin Labot. Rindunya kat mak. 

I miss my dad, my apak. The man who taught me so much of how to not be cruel to those who treat you cruel. Never had he talk bad stuff about people. He would alway smile at me, showing his gum, he would look so funny. I can still remember when he joined me in my 'ulam buah asam' session, he would bring with him a 'lesung batu' to actually crush the 'asam'. Well, it doesn;t need much to know that he didn't really want to eat, but he all he wanted was to be with me, to actually join me and show me just how he loved having me with him always. I once promised him that I would want him to stay with me when I am working later. But it seems like that would not be possible.Pak, sorry if ever i broke your heart. Al-Fatihah buat arwah ayah; Junai bin Amin. Rindunya kat ayah.

I don't think I can handle the feelings of losing people I love. Ya Allah, panjangkan usia ahli keluargaku. Semoga aku pergi dulu sebelum mereka. 

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Al-Fatihah. Amin Ya RabbalAlamin

Sedkah Alfatihah selalu, doa kesejahteraan cdak.cdak ada bersama kau. jgn lalai, jgn alpa. biarpun cdak sikda, ko mesti teruskan hidup dan tunaikan janji ko ngn cdak.insyAllah. cdak akan sentiasa meyokong kau. Amin.

BuMbLe BooGiE said...

InsyAllah. Aku slalu doakan sidak. Sedekahkan sidak Al-Fatihan. makseh ho, whoever u may be. Aku harap dalam ko baca ya, ko sedekahkan Fatihah pakei sidak juak. Semoga sidak merasa nikmat d alam lain, Amin.

cili belacan said...

ermmm..sedih tol aku la..sk wat touching2 tau..xper kter smua sm2 doakn utk cdak yer..biar cdak tenang kt sn..ko pn kalo tol syg cdak jgn wat menda2 yg cdak x sk,biar cdak bangga ngan siapa diri ko..he2.

BuMbLe BooGiE said...

sedih... tiba2 rindu kat diaorg smalam. x leh study pun. nasib baek la soalan preksa senang td. Ko pun sama, jgn buat benda yg maka ayah x suka tau. tak pasal2 ko wat diaorg kecik hati kang... susah.

Hakim said...

jee..i pun tumpang sedih baca entry ko nie..
life is so hard without our loved ones around...i'm feelin it so much right now.
i would always want to cheer u up so that kita sama2 xperlu bersedih..
mcm i pnh ckp dulu, kisah hidup kita berbeza tp tema tetap sama kan??
ala2 why do we hurt the most the ones we love the most laa kan???
tabahkan hati k jee??n im so glad to hear you transformation jee...

nana2202 said...

Kmk lambat p mok komen juak. You made me cry pukul 8 pg dgn bunyi riuh monyet di blakang. Hehe...semyum sik? I tried to make u smile p mek sik terer bab ya. Sori.
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