It's been months................

It's been F**King(no offence intended) long since the last written entry. A lot has happened lately. Be it official duties or personal matters, it has made me think that i need an extra 5 hours a day. There must be a reason why God created 24 hours only each day and not 30 hours. Imagine life with 30 hours, still half of it would be dedicated to SLEEP and FUN!

So many official duties have got to be done the past few months... i mean it, months... 1 duty after another. But it has never made me stop thinking about those who are valuable in my life. Anyway, before i go any further with my nonsensical self mumbling, i would like to share with fellow readers a GREAT news!!!

Introducing my LOVE!!!
SITI AQEELA AALEESYA

Last month, my sister in law gave birth to a beautiful and healthy PRINCESS and i had the opportunity to name her. She is Siti Aqeela Aaleesya. Happens to be, she has got the same name with Erra Fazeera's daughter. It was pure coincidence. Anyway, the name is referred to a collection of arabic names and it has been choosen due to it's beautiful meaning. Aqeela means (the 'best'est) and Aalesya means (selected by God). Thus, she is the BESTest person SELECTed by GOD. ALHAMDULILLAH.

I could write more about SITI AQEELA ALEESYA but words are never enough to express my gratitude.

Would you like to know about what new things I've experience here in LS (Lawas S'wak)? I've learnt a lot and one of it is anger management. It's hard having a class of unmotivated students and trying to handle their various characters. Some are obedience while most are WILD! So, if you ask me the most suitable song for them, it's "CAN'T BE TAMED" by Milley Cyrus. Seriously, i would always feel like exploding whenever i enter this class but they are actually teaching me a valuable lesson. They makes me aware of anger management.

Dont get me wrong, i'm not complaining. I just want to share the experience with you guys with hope that you would have the best way to handle this students. Some would just love to get to your nerves. Purposely challenging you to explode because they simply would love to see you go wild too...ha3... I've lost my temper few times before and i've leant that it doesn't have any effect on them. It makes them even WILDer.

Anyway, let us not be emotionally affected by that. They are just being immature despite some of them are even taller and bigger in size. Their size doesn't reflect their maturity. Some are just nonsensically foolish while some are trying to act BIG. Either way, they are acting in such way due to the fact that they cannot foreseen the future. They do not know just how their attitudes would mold them to be somebody n the future. Looking into the matter, i believe there are 1 good news and a bad one. The good news is they can enjoy life as teenagers with having to think of duties in life and the bad news would be that most of them would regret their attitudes later on in life. If only they realize!!!

in love with this pic

love it, love it, love it... thanks to Mr. Paz for this pic.

4 sciences

technology failure.... WTF

motivate me pls

It has been 5 weeks and i dont see any sign improvement from my students. Maybe it's way too early to judge but i could have at least grabbed their attention during my lesson. I'm honestly frustrated with myself for not able to perform well. The teachers of SMK abdul Jalil were right. the 'drama' i had when i was doing my practical was only a tip of an iceberg. I am officially shocked by the frightening truth.

I have been trying a lot of methods to educate but it seems like none works on them. I'm so scared thinking about 2 of my classes would be having their exam soon and they are unprepared for it. I've seen a lot of different attitudes. in one way or another, the attitudes dont give them any advantage in life. such a waste of time. At times, i felt like scolding them but i don't think it works.

still so blur....

from a land far, far away....

I'm now in a land so far away from home. I'm currently working in Lawas, Sarawak, around few hundreds kilometers from home. It's so far that some might not even notice the existence of this place. But i love it here. It's very near to 3 places of interests namely Sabah, Labuan and Brunei. Apart, there are a lot of beautiful waterfall and recreation places here. Not forgetting, there are also several breath taking beaches and scenery. Nature lovers would really love to be here as it is still so green and not very much polluted by the development.

Anyway, i'm doing fine now. it's been a month and i'm adjusting well. i arrived here on the 22nd July and now it's now 22August, perfectly a month. Like i said earlier, i'm adjusting and it seems like everything is going as planned. I was, however, hoping for few things that Lawas can't offer but i think it's better than nothing. You can get almost everything easily here.

It's been two years in a row that i have to celebrate most of my Ramadhan days without family. Fortunately, i'l be back with them for Raya or i would be sad on that day. I spent last Raya with my adopted family in Melaka, so i have to celebrate the coming Raya with my family. I miss the kampung raya environment.

Alahamdulillah, this Raya might be a little different as i'm celebrating as a person who is employed. For the past 22 years, i've been celebrating it as a student. Now, i've come a a brand new phase of my life. For a start, i'll be paying my own zakat this year. Everything is so new to me. I have lots of new responsibilities in which i never even care about when i were a student. Everything would be arranged by my uncle who is also my mother and father at the same time. He means the world to me.

If i got my paid this month, i would be buying few things for Raya. Here are the list:
1. Cakes (3 layered cakes)
2. Paint (maybe)
3. new Raya clothes
4. some goodies for my nieces and nephews.

Wishing all my readers happy Ramadhan :)

a little update from somewhere in Samarahan

world is going to realize my stupidity. and you are wondering why... you'll see... please forgive me for not able to be a person of certain standard. i guess i'm a loser after all. It's hard, harder to bear than merely knowing about it. I guess i don't need sympathy right now. I'm learning to become someone better and now i'm on my own. Feels like stopping...quitting. I don't know how to describe what i feel but i am surely in so much pain. Ya Allah, please help me go through this. I don't have my mom and my dad on my side. Dear readers, pray for me. Please don't ask me what's going on ok. It's time to put a comma to everything... not yet a full stop.

escaping reality

My friends and me are really tensed right now. We're having KISSM exam tomorrow. You know the equivalent of exam don't you... yup, it means that we have to study and to be honest, i had enough of it after the many2 years of studying. I have lost the momentum. I hardly able to highlight the notes, what more to write it down.

Due to that, Topeq, Rifky and myself decided that we should escape the reality for a while. No,no... it doesn't mean going to game arcade, neither it means going for karaoke. It's as simple as going back to the activity we did together when we were still in IPBL last time. so, presenting...

Mangoes hunting
location: behind the IPGMBL boys' hostel
time: 1.45-2.30
date: June 18 2010

The past flashes back in my mind. i can vividly remember the time when the three of us and our seniors, Borex, Tham, Jerry, and many others used to climb the tree to plug the mangoes. Usually, the ripe mangoes would fall to the ground and we don't stand a chance to pick it as the cleaners would pick it before us. So, the only way to taste the fruit is by plugging fresh from the tree. So that was what we did. We would take excessively and divide it among us. We would have 'ulam' party and some would be turned into pickles.

Sorry juniors, i dont think you would experience the same because they're cutting down the tree as there would be s new building build there. In fact, the construction is in progress. Pity you all, he3.

Time to get back into reality guys. I have exam tomorrow so it's time to study. We're have 'ulam' party tonight. Till next time, bye.......